*tIng walks into the room, with her head hanging low.*

Its a fucking unlucky day! Woke up this morning at 10.10am (I start work at 11pm!).. I'm going to be soooo LATE.


I dashed into the toilet, took a quick shower and started to get dressed for work. I looked out the window, only to realise that its RAINING.


I got dressed, put on my heels and dashed out the door with my umbrella. Reached the void deck of my block and tried to open the umbrella.

With no time to run back home to get another umbrella, i summoned what's left of my courage and dashed out into the rain. By the time i reached the bus stop, my jeans were wet.


Finally made my way to Cityhall.. Its still RAINING.


Not wanting to be drenched, i decided to take the shutter bus instead. Waited for like 20 minutes.. STILL NO BUS IN SIGHT.


Sometimes, buses are like men. They just wun come. *shrugs* Since i've given up on men, i decided maybe its best i give up buses as well. I walked all the way back to Citylink and to Suntec. Its still RAINING.


I cant believe it. My boss just called to ask me when i was. Why is it that bosses never call when i'm early for work? Why do they always call when i'm LATE for work. And I had to dashed through the rain and across the road.

Finally reached my workplace at 11.30am. When I was feeling cold and hungry, my boss told me that from next month onwards, i'll have to go to the outlet at Thomson Plaza once a week. That's like sooo far from my place.


*tIng takes out a rope and starts to hang herself.*

Nabehz...Just tell me! Give me ALL the bad news! Just give it all to me and let me die! *strangles herself* Can things be any worse?

Just when i thought that maybe life isn't that bad..

*tIng walks into her bedroom, mumbling to herself "Fuck the rain.. Fuck everything else.."

I'm going to sleep.. Surely things cant get any worse, right?

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

LADIES... Find a guy:

Who calls you beautiful instead of hot
who calls you back when you hang up on him
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead
Who wants to show you off to the world
When you are in your sweats
Who holds your hand in front of his friends
Who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding youo of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you
Wait for the one who turns to his friends andsays, "...that's her."

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

In life, as people get older, there's always more things to worry about. I, for one, am a born worrier. I worry about a lot of different things.

I worry about me. I worry dying alone and eaten by monsters. I worry about not having enough to eat. I worry about not finding a job that i like. I worry about living a life that is less than fulfilling. I worry about not having a roof over my head.

I also worry about my parents. I worry about them growing old and dying. Last night, while having dinner with my parents, i suddenly looked at them and realised how much they had aged. I got scared. I don't know what will i do without my parents. As i was eating, i felt that the simplest happiness in life was right before me. Having a meal with my love ones. No need for fancy dishes or expensive dinners. Just my family and I.

*tIng looks away, fearing that tears may fill her eyes.*

I think i worry too much. Lately, i've been worrying about the tsunami coming again and flooding the whole of Singapore. I worry about the Sun burning out and all humans will freeze to death. I worry about the air being polluted and breathing in will shorten my life. *shrugs*


I think being insecure about these little things made me appreciate thing more. The fact that i know that they may slip pass me the very next moment made me thankful for them being in my life.


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Me (In Cheongsum) 

I have many thoughts swimming in my head. I think i better start blogging before they all drown. First of all, my mood swings are getting from bad to worse. A few nights ago, i laid on my bed and just started to cry for no reason. I started to think about what it would be like to die. I thought about what i would wan to say to my parents and friends. Thought about how to comfort them even when i'm already dying. I just want to feel depressed.



Am feeling very anti-social right now. Its one of those times when i just want to lock myself in my room, blast my music and play Warcraft all night. *shrugs* Was supposed to meet Su ken, Alvin, Fuwen and Thomas for dinner but i was too tired. We were out yesterday night till 3am! Fucking hell.. Actually, Fuwen and Thomas came to pick me around ten plus and we headed to meet Su ken and Alvin. When we reached her block, Su ken came running to us and told us that Alvin's nose was bleeding. Apparently, she had punched him in the face so hard that his nose bled. *tsk tsk* Domestic violence... He tried to stop the bleeding by stuffing tissues in his nose. Thomas suggested sticking a tampon into his nose instead.

*tIng considers the possibility of marketing tampons as the new subsitute for tissues.*

Who knows, the next greatest invention (after the vibrator, of course) would be a tampon-like stick for people to stuff into their noses when they have runny nose or nose bleed. My nose is running again... *sniff sniff*

But anyway, back to yesterday, we went to Geylang for dim sum cause Su ken wanted to have dim sum. After that, we went to the Esplanade. I've just decided that the most romantic place to propose to your girlfriends would be at the Esplanade. Nice view of the sea.. neon lights.. *aWwW*

Argh.. I'm drifting off again.. I think my brain is very confused these days. I think i have more male hormones than female hormones. And i'm feeling very irritated and very grouchy. And I want to sleep right about now.

*tIng stomps out of the room.*


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

*tIng enters the room, wearing a long black dress and a black veil.*

Its a very sad day. We are gathered here today to grieve the death of my lovely Black/Green Silk jacket. He died this morning. He may not have been the jacket which accompanied me through the rain. He may not be the one which kept me warm in the freezing cinemas.


*tIng takes out a white handkerchief and wipes her tears.*

I haven decide what type of burial would be more apporiate? Sea? Or Land? Will we be serving curry chicken at the wake? What music will we play? What flowers will we get?

*tIng considers these seriously.*

Well, if its of any consolations to me, at least it is still in ONE piece and not pieces. *blows her nose* I'll miss him. I'll miss how soft he felt around me. How nice it was to wear something so B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. Sadly, his beauty was shortlived.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

There once was a time and there once was a way
We had something going and to my dismay
Attention to me seemed to drift though I don't know where


And when we're alone seems there's nothing to say
I bring up a topic and you push it away
You say that you do but I think it's just you don't care
Why do I feel you're using me


Are we an item or are we just two
I need some commitments all I ask of you
Your lifestyle can change
Don't be 'fraid what you think's in store


I know what's on your mind you've got lots to lose
Your shallow acquaintances what's there to choose
Yuo won't get too deep even though I'm worth so much more
So think about it carefully


Smile for a while and let's be jolly
Love shouldn't be so melancholy
Come along and share the good times while we can


If that's how you want it; that's how it'll be
There's no use in trying or making you see
That love don't come easy you don't know what it's about


To get things together won't take any pain
Don't need to see/hear from you ever again
From this day on listen but no more
Please count me out, and you know what I'm talkin' about


Smile for a while and let's be jolly
Love shouldn't be so melancholy
Come along and share the good times while we can


I know now's the time that I went to find something new
You know it's your crime that I'm out to find someone too


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

My body aches.. My left eye is swollen.. I'm in horrible state.

Was out the whole of yesterday doing stuff. Had dinner with my friends at Suntec (the steamboat buffet). So yummy.. I had lots of beef.. mushrooms.. eggs.. crabs.. *drools*

After dinner, i met Fuwen (<-- Yes.. ITS FUWEN!), Alvin Tan and Su ken for drinks. Fuwen and Alvin met me at my house after which we went to pick Su ken from her house. On the way to Su ken's house, i was quite embarrassed because i kept sliding forward on his bike. *blushes* I resorted to holding the metal bar at the backseat to stop myself from sliding.

But anyway, i'm not like dating him or anything. I've learnt my lesson from the last time Sally tried to set me up with Justin's fren.

*tIng writes it on a post-it note and sticks it on her forehead.*

Its not good. Sally felt real bad when things didn't work out. She felt that it was her fault cause she was the one who sort of introduced me and him. *shrugs* I guess its kind of a thingy you are not supposed to do. Well, who is really to blame?

How do we know wha's right or wrong if we did not try?

Anyway, my left eye hurts and i'm off to rest now.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Its one of those days when i DO NOT feel like blogging. However, i'll just blog about what happened yesterday.

Went to Zouk with Candice (her 1st time!), Amanda and Step. Was pretty excited about going to Zouk cause it has been a while since i was there. Was looking forward to it. Had dinner at Suntec Mac. I had a Spicy Mac double Meal, with the drink changed to Ice tea. We sat there till about 10pm after which we made our way down to Zouk.

At the entrance, the bouncer checked all our bags. When he saw the Nelgene in my bag, he told me that i could not bring it in! What the fuck?!

*tIng raised her eyebrow.*

Since when did they have a rule about water bottles? I was abit pissed off. But me, being me, i was determined NOT to let anyone insignificant irritate the shit out of me. So he took my Nelgene and told me i could collect it afterwards.

When we finally got in, it was already quite crowded. I quickly checked out the crowded, hoping to find interesting people. (By the word "Interesting" i actually meant cute, handsome men.) Sadly, there was hardly any one worth checking out. Disappointed, i proceeded to drown my sorrows in alcohol.



Unfortunately, it was not helping. So i went back to the bar and got myself another Vodka Orange.



I think it was the dinner i had. Or maybe it was the medicine i took. Or maybe its just because of all the not so pretty people around. I felt seriously sick. I pushed my way (Imagine Moses and the parting of the Red Sea) to the toilet and only to find ALL THE CUBICLES OCCUPIED.

*tIng covers her mouth with her left hand while holding up the 3rd finger on her right.*

Its one of those Murphy Laws' days.


I was spending more time in the toilet puking, rather than on the dance floor dancing. My head ached so much that i left the club about 1am. Reached home about 1.30am but i was still sober enough to put away my shoes NEATLY, shower and put myself to sleep. I even managed to wake up on time for work this morning!


*tIng pats herself on her back.*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Tonight's dinner shall be a piece of pancake.

*tIng weeps over her sad little pancake.*

I'll starve myself till i'm pencil thin in order to appear B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. I hate thin people. I hate thin people when i feel FAT.


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Ok. I'm back. I'm not dead yet. *hurrays!!* (Though i'm not sure whether this is a good or bad news to you?). As the saying goes, what doesn't kills you makes you stronger.


*tIng pats herself on the back.*

Well.. Have you gone through a day whereby no one called or msg you? My handphone has been awfully quiet today. *shrugs* I guess its one of those days when people around me are too busy with their lives that they have forgotten about ME.

*tIng checks her handphone again and whines.*

No one cares about me... *sobz sobz* But anyway, doesn't bother me much. I'm happy. I just finished eating a pack of yummy Nasi lemak. *drools*

Was reading the Bulletin Board on friendster when i came upon this thingy posted by my dearie, Azan. Thought it was quite funny.. Here it goes..

Think of a movie title and change its one word to penis...

1.The Last PENIS Standing (Man)
2.Dude, where's my PENIS? (Car)
3.A PENIS to remember (Walk)
4.Interview with a PENIS (Vampire)
5.Riding PENISs (Giants)
6.Back to the PENIS (Future)
7.When a man loves a PENIS(Woman)
8.Saving private PENIS (Ryan)
9.Episode 2: Attack of the PENIS(s)(CLones)
10.PENIS in New York (Autumn)
11. PENIS Bites (reality)
12.Head of PENIS (State)
13.The Little PENISs (Rascals)
14.Lemony Snicket's A Series ofUnfortunate PENISs (Events)
15.Honey, I shrunk the PENIS (kids)
16.Scent of A PENIS (woman)
17.PENIS On Fire (Man)
18.A Beautiful PENIS (Mind)
19.Catch PENIS(me) if you can.
20.Bulletproof PENIS (monk)
21. LORD OF THE PENIS(rings)
22.PENIS room (Panic room)
23.Jurassic PENIS (Park)
24.How to lose a PENIS in 10 days(guy)
25.PENIS Magic (PRactical)
26.My sassy PENIS(girl)
27.Charlie's PENIS: full throttle(angels)
28.Pretty PENIS(woman)
29.Snake in the PENIS'sshadow(eagle's)
30.Big PENIS (Daddy)
31. 40 days, 40 PENIS (nights)
32.Walking PENIS(Tall)...
33.Remember the PENIS(titans)
34.Save the Last PENIS (Dance)
35.50 First PENIS (Date)
36.Spongebob Square PENIS(Pants) The Movie
37.Dirty PENIS (Dancing)
38.Finding PENIS (NEMO)
39.My BIG, FAT, GREEK PENIS!!!(Wedding)
40.Enter the PENIS (Dragon)
41. PENIS Got Fingered (Freddy)
42. Open PENIS (Water)
43. I heart PENIS (huckabees)
44. Once upon a PENIS in mexico (Time)
45. White PENIS (chicks)
46. Bridget jones's PENIS (diary)
47. The league of extraordinary PENIS(gentlemen)
48. Princess PENIS (diaries)
49. Sleeping with the PENIS(enemy)
50. Finding Penis (Forresster)
51. The PENIS Identity (Bourne)
52. A Very Long Penis (engagement)
53. My Little Penis (Bride)
54. Super Size Penis (Me)
55. How to lose a Penis in 10 days(Guy)
56. National Penis (treasure)
57. Penis Raiders [ Seoul ]
58. Kung Fu Penis ( Hustle )
59. Meet Da Penis ( fockers )
60. First Penis (Dates) =)
70. Finding Penis
71. Edward Penis Hands ( Scissors )
72. i,PENIS (ROBOT)
73. Penis Away (Spirited)
74. Series of Unfortunate Penis (events)
75. Honey i Shrunk the Penis (kids)
76. The Littlest Penis (elf)
77. 28 Penis Later (days)
78. Team Penis (america)
79. Lord of the Penis (rings)
80. White Penis (noise)
81. Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Penis (Mind)
82. The Penis (Eye)
83. Million Dollar Penis (Baby)
84. Mr Penis - Armed & Fabulous
85. Son of the Penis (Mask)
86. Bride and Penis (Prejudice)

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

I used to think that being single was quite sad. That was until the time when i was SINGLE and DATELESS. To make things worse, it was a Saturday night. *shrugs* All these was until now.



I think the only date that I'll be having this Saturday night will be with my doctor, who told me that i should be fine after taking my medicine. He charged me $38 for a 5 minutes consultation. *shrugs* Wonder how much will a dinner date cost?

I was feeling feverish the whole day.. Felt that my head was going to explode.. Unfortunately, i cant go home early. So i popped two panadols at work, hoping that it'll go away. By 6pm, the pain in my head, not only did not go away, it got worse.
*tIng bangs her head against the wall.*

Maybe i'm dying. Maybe my head will explode and all my brain juices will splatter all over my laptop? Maybe i should start preparing my grave now..

*tIng takes a shovel and starts digging.*

I think i need a wider grave. Who knows? I may need to toss and turn every now and then. But I think 6 feet under ground should be deep enough. I've already thought about the words on my tombstone. It should go something like this:



*tIng starts to cry.*

I would like white flowers for my funeral. Lots of flowers. Mahjong is a must-do.Curry chicken is a must-have. No chinese band though. I might turn in my coffin if they ever play at my funeral. *shurgs*

If i'm not back blogging tomolo, please look out for my obituary in the newspapers.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Been wanting to change the song of my blog.. Wanted to change it to the song "The Blower's Daughter". If you have watched the movie "Closer", its the song playing at the begining and also at the end. I loved the movie! I like the part where Alice was talking to Dan. He told her how much he loved her. But she said she can only hear some words. She cant feel the "love". Its so true.


I think Dan is really selfish. He never really loved her. He just wanted her to love him.

*tIng thinks about it seriously.*

But isn't it true for all men? All of them wants women to love them, unconditionally. But they are not willing to give the same amount of love back. *shrugs* I think the only uncondition love is the love between a mother and her child. Don't you think so?

*tIng stares at you, wide-eyed, waiting for you to nod your head.*

Went to watch "Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events" with Raymond yesterday. Watched it for FREE cause he has VIP pass. *winkz winkz* I thought it was a funny movie. Very interesting costumes and sets. I really like the clothes wore by the little girl. I think the special effects are good. But i thought that the storyline was a bit weak. Kind of predictable. *shrugs* Nevertheless, i think its a nice show. I think i deserves half a thumbs up.

*tIng sticks up her left thumb, takes out a knife and cuts it in half.*

Out of all the movies i've watched, i still prefer the show "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind". I think its deep, dark, funny but touching. I love it sooo much. Its really the best film i've watched so far. One thumb up!

*tIng takes out a piece of scotch tapes, tapes her left thumb together and sticks it up.*

Anyway, am quite sleepy now.. Will be back to blog more.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Its my off day tomolo and with no plans to meet of my frens, i finally decided to run some personal errands that have been long overdue.

Plans for tml:

1) Collect my NRIC
2) Collect my diploma from SP.

Ok.. The second task is W-A-A-Y overdue. I've gradutated last july and have not collected my cert till now. *shrugs* I guess one of the reasons why i've not collected my dip is actually because i resent the idea of justifying the value of my life with a piece of paper.

Personally, i don't feel that having a piece of paper means anything to me. Its doesn't tell you what kind of person i am. It doesn't tell you my thoughts or my feelings. It doesn't not tell you anything about me.


To me, education should be about learning what you are interested in. I want to learn about stuff that i like and not forced to study subjects that i don't want. Sadly, Singapore is a place where certification is very important. People are judged too quickly by their qualifications like where they graduated from or what grades they obtained.

Hundreds of years from now, who will remember all this? I want to be about to be remember for what kind of person i am and NOT for my academic results. I'm thankful for being brought up in Singapore and being educated in world-class education system. But i still think that somehow Singapore's education system is flawed and there's still room for more changes. *shrugs*

Anyway, am going to shower now.. My lens are soo dry that they are threatening to pop out anytime!!

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Recently, i've been getting the feeling that i'm surrounded by freaky men. One breed, which is especially prominent is a group of men i like to call, THE EMOTIONALLY UNAVAILABLE MEN (E.U.M).

They are literally EVERYWHERE. Take a stone and throw on the streets and you'll definately hit a emotionally unavailable men.

*tIng nods her head.*

Yupz.. thats how over populated they are! I think i had my fair share of E.U.Ms. Its seems to me that almost all the guys i met are emotionally unavailable for some reasons. The most common of all is that they cant get over their ex-gfs. Well, let me decipher this for you ladies out there. It simply means "I like you but i still wan to fuck other gals too." *shrugs*

This breed of men enjoy your company, whether it is dinner, movies or even just tea. They may not be looking for sex but they do want to hold you, kiss you and sometimes snog. They can be amazingly romantic and sweet. They give gals all these mixed feelings. Of course, me being me, always end up so confused and fustrated that i literally want to strangle all of them!! But then i realised that no matter how i feel or what i do, at the end of the day, they still remain emotioanally distant from ME.

After time and time of getting upset anf fustrated over this type of men, i finally realised.


This means being emotionally distant from THEM! You can go out on dates, enjoy their company and at the end enjoy a little snog. *winkz* But the moment the word "Goodbye" leaves your lips, you stop feeling for them. Like what i always say, I only love them when i see them.


Of course i'm not saying that this form of relationship is healthy. But it does save me from alot of heartache. *shurgs*


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Jus got home from Bedok 85 market.. Was there with the Gv gang (Su ken, Alvin, Ah boon, Didi, Ah tong, Ah Gui, Ah seng, Jo, Ah guan etc) for a farewell dinner for Ah tong cause he's going into army on the 12th of March.

Was quite surprised to see Fuwen there! *blushes* I used to have a crush on him when i first started working at Gv. But he quit soon after cause he had to go into the army. *shrugs* There was this time when everyone was teasing me about him. When he came down to watch movie, Patrick passed me his tickets so that i could talk to him. *laughs* So funny..

Anyway.. was so bored at work today cause there was hardly any people shopping at the mall so i sat there and started thinking about stuff. Was reading this book when i chanced upon this line that goes like "Men are such useless gender".

*tIng ponders over the meaning of this sentence.*

I guess its somehow true. Let's start talking about this from men's physical form.

Men have nipples, which till now, I have NOT figured out what they are for?! Their nipples are bascially for decoration purposes. Cant use it to feed babies or whatsoever. *shrugs*


How about their heads? (Which in this case, i'm talking about BOTH of their heads) Both are equally redundant. Their thoughts and behaviour are guided only by their lower head. I have NOT met any guys who have proven themselves to make me change my thinking.


And how about their hearts? We gals always talk about how heartless men can be. So there again, their hearts are useless.


See... Just going through Men's physical form and we have already established quite firmly that Men are actually quite useless. *shrugs* Let's not even talk about how useless they are emotionally.

*tIng shakes her head and grieves over how useless Men are.*

I know i'm being very mean and unfair to all the guys out there. I, too, want to believe that there are good men out there. But seriously, finding a good man is harder than finding a dino fossil. *shrugs* Till i meet a guy who is worth of the term "GOOD MAN", i shall remain cynical about men.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Was flipping through the Dolce & Gabbana catalog which was full of B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L men when suddenly i had a thought. What if someday i could just flip open a catalog and just order a man?

*tIng grinz widely at the thought.*

What a tempting thought! I wish i could just order the man of my dreams from a catalog. I don't have to go through all the irritating blind dates anymore! Neither do i have to try to get men's attention. All i'll have to do is pick a guy and order him. There! As simple as that!

Ok ok.. You must be thinking.. WHAT ABOUT LOVE?

*tIng raises her eyebrow and looks at you.*

I don't think so dear... Who cares about love when he's got a nice body, cute hair and big *ahem* unmentionable?! *shrugs* As Carrie would have said,


Who knows? Maybe someday we might be able to exchange our old boyfriends for newer better models? Trade in old ones for new ones.. Just like handphones.. UPGRADE! We could get better, more functional men. I can just imagine the advertising tagline. It should go like this..


You know how the newer handphones always have better functions? New boyfriends will have new functions too! Imagine this..


See.. I'm a true blue business woman. I can sell anything! *giggles*

Ok. I'm bored. Very bored indeed. Lately, i've been getting obsessed with my hands. I'm using the hand sanitiser like every 2-3 hours. Is this considered as complusive? *considers seriously* I just like clean hands. And according to Candice, it kills 99.99% of the germs. *shrugs* We should all use hand sanitiser. Candice could be the spokesperson and i could be the Marketing Director. I like my hand sanitiser. Its apple scent. I love apples. Apple tea. Apple Juice. And now Apple hand sanitiser.








loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

It rained the whole morning today. Saw a drain that was overflowing with rainwater. When i was young, my grand father used to fold paper boats for my sister and me to put in the flowing waters in the drain. He would use those chinese calendar to fold the paper boats. I remember telling my grand father to put a little shelter on my boat. I had pretty paper boat.


Went to town today to meet Stanley Teo for lunch. Was there quite early so i decided to do my nails at Taka's Nail Place while waiting for him. We went to the Crystal Jade Ramian for lunch and went to Partyworld KTV. I've been going to KTV every week (sometimes as frequent as 3 times a week!). *tsk tsk* I guess it helps take my mind off things while being there. Plus i actually save more money cause i don't buy as many stuff.

We met Chaiyang for dinner at Wheelock, after which, i took the bus home. I like taking long bus rides. They give me time to just sit down and stare into blank space. I always sit at the second last row from the back of the bus. Don't ask me why.. I just like the spot. Sitting there, staring at people, quietly observing what they are doing..

Was staring at my own reflection in the window on the bus. I look sad. Who is the person in the reflection? The gal with big curly hair, bright colourful clothes, her big dangling earrings..


She's screaming inside. Trying to get out. I want to rip everything off.. wipe the stuff off my face and say "Look at me. This is the real me". Somehow, i cant. I cant let me be me anymore.

*tIng touches her reflection and shakes her head.*

The world is a cruel place. Everyone wants to use you or abuse you. I cant let you out. They'll hurt you. I'll protect you. You are safe, safe inside me. I won't let anyone break us down. No.. They wun break us down anymore.

I've let them in before. They broke down the wall, came over and took everything. When they left, they left nothing behind. Nothing but a broken you. Its useless. Don't believe their lies anymore.. They don't mean a thing they say. I'm the only one who truly loves you.


*tIng stares at her reflection.*


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.