Just got back from KTV session with Sally, Justin and Yanwen.. Am awfully tired *yawnz* cause i haven been sleeping much this week. Too much has happened but i don't dun how to start to explain the damm situation. *shrugs*


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

I'm so guilty. Haven been blogging (for one week to be exact..) cause my internet was disconneted. It cost me a mind blowing $331.12 EXACTLY!



Well.. what to do? Cant survive with the net.. Its seems lately my social life depends very much on it. With only one day off per week, the only way to catch up with all my frens is through the net. *shrugs*

Anyway, i shall continue on where i stopped the last time.. So here it goes..

15th Feb
Work work work.. Home.. Sleep

16th Feb
Nite out with Daphne and Chaiyang.. Went to Zouk.. Reached there around 10.30pm.. Never been there so early though. I have to say its pretty freakish that day. First, we saw this group of guys and gals drinking shots. They were drinking so much that they were drunk before 11pm. Seriously, if you are going to get wasted so fast and so early in the nite, why come all the way to Zouk? Might as well stay at home. *shrugs*

Later, we saw this two gals dancing on the ladies platform. They were sooo hot, rubbing each other like some kind of erotic dancers. One of the gal was wearing a veRy VERY short skirt.. So short that when she danced, she exposed herself. Black skirt and white thong.. *considers* Well, it's either she has very bad fashion sense or she's desperate to show off her undies. Anyway, they were dancing so wildly that all the guys were staring at them. Like i told Chaiyang, just throw ten bucks to them and ask them to strip larz. Stop wasting time! *laughs*



After that, we saw this trans.aka.ah gua. who dressed like a "fairy". *laughs* Eric said that she looked like the Goddess of mercy.. Can pray to her.. Oh did i mention that i met Eric? Apparently, he has been clubbing every week since i last saw him at Zouk on 29th Dec 04. And its behind his gf's back! *tsk tsk* I swear i saw him touching this gal that night. *shrugs* I feel sorry for his gf.. *sighs* Its another classic example of bad man cheating on nice gals.



Oh oh oh.. I almost forgot.. I saw Ginger and Baby again.. Seems that i bump into them everywhere! Seriously, I'm not too keen on seeing them. I saw Ginger french kissing this gal. *gasps in horror* And Daphne saw it too! And she asked me why Ginger cant make up her mind on whether she likes guys or gals?



Well, she used to be a guy so its not strange for her to kiss gals. But whether she like gals or guys.. That i don't know.. And i don't wanna know.. *shrugs* Since i'm talking about gals kissing gals, i kissed Daphne that night! *laughs* But its not on the lips larz.. Its just a light peck on the cheeks! Sometimes, i feel that i love her.... as a friend i mean! Majority of the time, i still prefer guys. But sometimes, i like to hug gals too! I think its because we are both from gals schools. Maybe this will explain our crazy lesbian behaviour at times. I'm going to miss her.. She's leaving on the 27th.. So we have to break up now..

But anyway, we had lotsa of fun that night. Danced.. Talked with Kit, Andrew and Eric.. Realised that they are all bastards in their own ways.. As i was saying, WHERE HAS ALL THE GOOD MEN GONE?

*tIng bangs her head against the wall.*

Moving on......

17th and 18th Feb
Was at Hyatt Hotel cause there was a 2-day fair. Bought a silk lamp ($16), a handbag ($40) and 2 beaded bracelets ($30).. Burnt more holes in my pocket.. *sighs* There's one hole here, there and EVERYWHERE.

Daphne and me were there for two days and we drank like lots of coffee. The coffee was VERY good.. and me, influenced by my darling Daf, took a liking to raw sugar. Yummy..

19th Feb
Met Kit for a movie at TM. Watched "Closer" and i loved the movie! But i hated Jude Law in the show. I think he's not being very fair to Natalie Portman. *bares her teeth* But i like Natalie alot in the show. I like her character. She packed her bag and left when she knew that he did not love her. I wished i've done the same thing too. Just disappear.

Anyway, am thinking of watching it again. Maybe i'll watch it with Daphne or Candice. *considers*

22nd Feb
Been thinking of going to Aussie for studies next year. I'm so tired of everything in Singapore. So sick of meeting the same people everywhere (Yes.. I'm referring to Ginger, Baby and ex-bfs). Singapore is just soo small. If i save enough money by next Feb, i'm going. I'm serious.



I'm not saying that I hate Singapore or anything. Its just that sometimes i just wish i could leave everything and run away. No baggage. Just my bag and me. Like Alice Aryes/Jane Jones.

*tIng lets out a deep sigh.*

I think i've blogged enough for the night. Off to bed..


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

I'm exhausted! Just got back from from town.. I'm soo HAPPY! This is, seriously, the best Valentine's day i ever had!

Woke up around 11 plus.. Dreamt that i met David Tao! In my dream, he signed all my albums and we talked and talked and talked.. *aWwwW* Unfortunately, i had to wake up cause i was meeting Candice in town for shopping..

Wore my new black netted off shoulder top today! I loved it! Spent quite a while dressing up so i was late again! Was supposed to meet Candice at Taka at 1.30pm but at 1.25pm i was still on the train. *shrugs*

On the train, i sat and pondered about what love actually is.. And i came up with a few..


While thinking about what Love is, a strange thought jumped out of my brains. I figured that love and women co-exist, while men and sex co-exist. And love is, actually, a romanticised version of sex. So, in order for men to have sex, they use love as a pretext. *shrugs*

*tIng wonders how true her theory is.*

Ok ok.. Getting way off now.. Back to my day.. I met Candice and we headed to Coffee Bean for a drink before going shopping. I had a nice cuppa Caramel Latte and a blueberry muffin. She had a cup of tea with an apple muffin. *drools* I love having tea with my gals...

For the next few hours, we chatted and shopped around the whole of Orchard. *phews*

*tIng wipes of beads of sweat from her forehead.*

I bought like a million things! A new pink knee length skirt, new pink earrings, a pink bracelet (which we bought one for each of us, but in different colours) and also a pair of jeans and a new pink sweater! As you can tell from the stuff i bought, i adore PINK. *blushes* I know it makes me seems too girly and i'm not a girly girl. But i just really think its a nice colour! Its not a sin, right?

*tIng looks around, defensively.*

Walking around Orchard today was hellish.. So many couples, hugging and kissing, looking digustingly HAPPY. So many people trying to sell us flowers, ballons and bears. A gal actually approached Candice and me and asked us if we would like to get flowers.

*tIng raises her eyebrows, angrily.*

Is she mocking me? Do i look like i'm attached? (I think she thought we were a couple cause we were holding hands?) Fucking hell.. I think its absolutely absurd. Why do couples get a special day but singles don't? *considers* I think it is undermining to my human rights as a singleton, which i have to state very importantly, for your information, A HAPPY SINGLETON.

Maybe we should write to the Parliment and request for a day to celebrate Singlehood.

Honestly, i've decided i'll do my very best to avoid Orchard during V day. The sight of happy couples with balloons and flowers icks me. And everywhere is packed because couples are out! Now, who the hell decided to give them a day off from the asylum?

Met Daphne and the Fangs for dinner at Sakea Sushi.. Was supposed to be eating at Billy Bombers but was absolutely turned off by their menu. They had stuff like 1) Cupid's soup of the day, 2) Romeo & Juliet's main courses etc.

*tIng pulls her hair and slams her head against the wall.*

Do they really have to do this? Don't they know that Romeo & Juliet both died? *laughs* And they actually think its a good idea to name the main courses after them?! Its too ridiculous.. I give up. V day is too commercialised.

Geraldine was very nice.. She gave us each a piece of jade and some chocolates for V day. I felt a little guilty though cause i didn't get her anything.

After dinner, the gals and I went to Partyworld for singing! Ohh.. I had soo much fun! I think i sing quite well.. Esp those manly songs! *laughs* Like those Wu Bai songs.. We had soo much fun that we've booked another slot for this Friday!

Seriously, this is the first time i truly enjoyed myself during V day! And i really look forward to the KTV session again this friday!

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Started my day with lotsa new stuff.. Firstly, i wore my new girl boxers from Topshop.. (Its BLUE!) *winkz* Next, i used my new mascara and my new J Lo perfume. I love the Earl Grey smell... *aWwW* Been eyeing on it since the Christmas in 2003 and FINALLY bought it yesterday! *hurrays!*

Had another boring day at work.. Post CNY is a low low peak period. Spent the whole day trying to find something to do but couldn't. Instead, i stood at the door, staring at people who were walking around. Seriously, i was looking for someone. But if you ask me who i was looking for, i don't know how to answer you. *shrugs* Maybe i was looking for a familiar face? Maybe i was hoping that Prince Charming would "pop" by and carry me off into the sunset?

Waited till 8pm but still no sight of Prince Charming.. *sighs* But i did see a cute guy, wearing red cap, having coffee at TCC! And also a girl with very wrong taste in clothes.. She was wearing a long skirt with leather boots.. Weird..

Alone, i took the East-bound train home.. Finished reading my book "Can you keep a secret?"... Kept thinking about wat secrets i was keeping.. So here's a few that i've thought of..

1) Like Jack Harper, i do not know what co-dependant means.
2) I cheated on a spelling test in primary school.
3) I used to have an english name. Its "Jen".
4) I sometimes wonder is Shaun is reading my blog. (and why i don't see him on the net anymore?)
5) I would like to try kissing a girl one day.
6) I've watched porn before.
7) I used to like watching Sell-a-vision.
8) I think that red sofas are a turn on.
9) I go weak in the knees when a guy read poetry to me.
10) I go weak in the knees when a cute guy looks at me.
11) I'm a very superstitious person.
12) I've just looked up how to spell the word "Superstitious" using www.dictionary.com.
13) I sometimes drool when i sleep.

i'm sure there's more but i cant think now cause i really need to pee. Will be back with more..

I'm officially ashamed of myself. Was out shopping alone again today.. It has become my weekly thingy.. Shopping after work on Sat nights.. Argh.. This is a bad habit! I'm spending so much.. Even though I can afford it, but its still BAD. I have sinned! (*^_^*)

Felt soo sleepy today at work that no amount of coffee helped. *shrugs* Think its because i was sneezing again throughout the night yest. No one to cover up for me... *aWwW* But anyway.. i guess its better to sleep alone than with someone. As the saying goes..


Haven eaten dinner.. With so many CNY goodies in the kitchen, the only logical thing a human would do is to grab a can of coke and start munching. Like the rest of the 2 million gals out there, i'll diet tomolo!

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Saw Ginger and Baby today while i was walking at Citylink. I din really want to acknowledge their presence, esp NOT after i know those things that Ginger said about me. *shrugs* Unfortunately, she caught my eyes and i was FORCED to stop and make polite "small talks". However, on a good side, i was nicely dressed in my hipster jeans and white tank top, with my huge colourful dangling earrings. *phews* I won't want to be caught looking like crap, esp not to be seen by ex lovers or their friends. I've come to the point that i think that i MUST look good (if not at least decently dressed). Its kind of an ego thingy. I mean.. It proves that I'm surviving very well WITHOUT YOU.

I hate it. I hate it when i have to be nice to people who i know are not exactly nice to me. Candice told me that sometimes we have to be "diplomatic". I hate the word "DIPLOMATIC".


Argh.. I simply wished them happy new year and politely told them i was rushing off to meet some friends for dinner. (Its not a lie! I was late for shopping with Candice!) Made my escape as fast as i could. *shrugs*

Met Candice at Topshop.. Shopped around and bought 2 pairs of girl boxers, both blue.. I wanted the red ones but they dun carry it anymore. *stomps her feet and whines* Went for dinner with Daf and the Fang people at Kuishinbo. I've never been there before. I was pretty stressed out cause they kept playing the song "Bo Bo Bo.. Kuishinbo.." whenever they had special promotions. *gasp* Eat dinner oso sooo stressed! No wonder the life span of human beings are getting shorter. Cant they just give us a break or something?

After dinner, Daf, Candice and I went shopping around Suntec. Went to HMV but couldn't find the broadway cd that i wanted. Went to VNC and Charles and Keith but couldn't find any shoes that i like... I'm upset!


Read my horoscope today.. It told me to settle for flawed reality instead of my fantasy. *raises her eyebrow.* What the fuck? Give me a good reason why i should settle for something flawed! Daf asked me and Candice why are we still unattached today. She said we are great girls but why cant we find decent guys? I simply looked at her and told her very blatantly "Its not that we don't want a relationship. Its just that there aren't many decent guys out there. They are all either gay or holding someone else's hand." *shrugs*

Yupz.. Its the truth. They are all holding someone else's hand except MINE.

*tIng throws both her hands up in the air!*

Daf said that i always attract the wrong guys. They are either freaks or bastards. *considers* I think she's right. Looking back at all the guys i've dated, none of them are decent. But come to think of it, the one thing they all have in common is.... ME. Maybe its ME who has a problem. Maybe its ME who is actually the freak?! *gasps in horror*

However, Post-me, all my ex bfs have done remarkably well. They are all happily attached in some way or another. *considers*


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Ah.. A perfect day! Beautiful sun!~~ I spent the day alone at the poolside, soaking up the sun's rays. I loved it! Nothing beats sun tanning.. And its quiet since there were only like 3 or 4 people at the pool. Read a little.. listened to my cd.. tanned a little.. I wish i could do it everyday!

*tIng stretches and soaks up the sun.*

After 2 hours of tanning, i went to the min mart near my house and bought lots of chips and a carton of apple juice. Went home and watched tv and "Sex and the City" on my com..


Am going to meet Candice and Daphne later at Suntec cause Mr Fang is treating us to a company dinner! Yeah! Free dinner!

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

There are certain times when i'm very skeptical about stuff. Right now, i'm so ready to challenge everything a guy says. There he is telling me how crazy he is over me and i'm like "Are you sure you are not high on drugs or something?"


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Grumpy Baby.. SoO CuTe~~ 

Daphne and Candice!  

Before i forget, I have to say something about Mr Ng Chun Kiat. Seriously, i dunno whether i should laugh or cry. He's like trying to flaunt his happiness straight in my face. When we were exchanging sms yesterday, he msged me saying "I wasted my time msging you. I rather spend more time with my dearie."

*tIng crosses her arms.*

Aww.. So nice of him to constanly remind me the fact that he's HAPPILY with someone else. I think he's suffering from some mental disease that impairs his memory, causing him to forget the fact that he was the one who CHEATED on me twice with the same gal. Either that or he's just very self-deluded. *shrugs*

Its true that i've cheated on him once as well. Won't deny the fact. It was an act of revenge. You can say its childish and immature of me. But all i can say i do crazy things when i'm in love. I was very in love at that point of time and all i wanted was to make him feel the pain too. He should be glad that i didn't try to sleep with his brother.

Su ken told me about this bet that Jason and the GV gang was saying the other time at Cecelia's chalet. They were betting on how long Kiat and his gf will last and how many gals/guys are there going to be in between. So far, most of them think it'll be 8 months with 2 or 3 gals in between. *laughs* Sometimes, GV people are just so ridiculous.

I'm supposed to wish him happiness with the gal. I'm supposed to be very forgiving. But honestly, I'm still reading the newspapers everyday, hoping to find that he has been knocked down by a car, flatten by a lorry or whatsoever. Is that very cruel of me to think this way?


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

*phews* I just got home! My gosh.. I'm sOo tired.. Officially, i've had ENOUGH of CNY. Thank goodness i dun have to see any more of my relatives (well, at least not for the next year if i can help it!)

*tIng crosses her fingers.*

Woke up around 9 plus, even though i don't really have to. Its like my body is so used to waking up at this timing. *shrugs* I refused to get out of my bed. *pulls blanket over head* Come on, its CNY.. I think my bed deserve a little more attention.

*tIng buries herself under the cover and forces herself to slp again.*

Dozed off again, waking every 5 minutes. Listened hard for any sounds outside my room. I waited and waited, expecting my mum to enter my room to wake me up. It didn't happen. Tired of waiting any longer, i dragged myself from my bed, holding my pillow in one hand, and walked out of the room. Strangely, nobody was awake execpt for my dad (who is already all dressed) *shrugs*

I was sort of expecting my dad to start nagging at me to get ready and tell me how late we are. Oddly, he didn't *raises her eyebrow* Well, maybe its the reverse psychology. I got dressed faster than i did in the previous years. I looked into the mirror and i realised that my eyes are all puffy and swollen! Fucking hell.. Must be all the crying yesterday night. (Yes yes.. i'm a wimp. I cry for absolutely no reason.) By the time i finished, my sister JUST woke up. We fussed around each other for awhile. It was about 1 o'clock before we left the house.

Visiting relatives on CNY is always like staging a play. A play that has been repeating for so many years that i cant even remember. The actors are the same and the lines are the same as well. Every year, relatives ask the same questions.. Questions like "Are you still studying?", "Do you have boyfriend?" etc... The answers to these questions has been said so many times. Seriously, if they ask me ONE MORE TIME, just ONE MORE TIME.. I'm going to FAINT!

*tIng faints and drops to the ground, foaming at the mouth.*

I've answered these questions like a million times and they cant even remember. I don't blame them. They are just trying to show concern and i try to be nice too. I guess i'll be like that when i grow old. I'll most likely forget all my nephews and nieces' names and where are they studying. Maybe i'll even forget the fact that they even exist. *shrugs*

But anyway, went to Mr Fang's house at Queenstown. His house is on the 34th floor! *grasps* The view is fantastic! We actually saw fireworks from his living room window! Anyway, will post pics that we took at his place. Played mahjong with Candice, Daphne and Amanda. I won $6!!!~~

*tIng jumps up and down in joy!*

Fucking hell.. I've like never won any money in mahjong! And i actually won 6 fucking bucks! *hurrays!~~* Maybe what people say is true. Maybe when your love life sucks, your luck will improve?! *giggles* Well, i don't care about my love life.. Men have proven themselves to be quite troublesome..

Once, i've been feeling low over some issues and my fling actually wanted to care for me! *faints* I had to stop him immediately and said to him "You are my fling. You are not supposed to care. Your sole purpose is to entertain me when i'm bored. You get it?" I mean, i have friends who care about me, friends whom i can talk to when i'm down. I don't need him to care. I DON'T WANT him to care. Freaking hell.. I had to dump him asap. *shrugs* I guess i can only say that he has reached him expiry date.

I don't know.. Does it make me sound bad when i say things like that? But that's the truth. I don't lie. I told my sister today how amazing women has changed over the last 100 years. We don't depend on men for food or for money. We don't depend on them to take care of us anymore. We don't even depend on them for sex! (which i absolutely thank god for the invention of the vibrator! At least they perform on demand, 24/7 and satisfaction guaranteed!) *shrugs*

Well.. Robin asked me to go to KL with him on fri. I'm still debating whether i should go. *considers* He's much too young for my preference. I cant take care of younger men (by the term younger, i refer to those below the age of 24). Plus, I'm not sure i want to be in a relationship. But he goes like "Sweetie, you should take a break. Please come with me." or like "My dear lady.." Its so hard to turn him down when he's all sweet and nice. But really.. Am i willing to give up all the other possible options to settle down with someone? *considers*

I dunno.. I'm really shagged out. Like what Scarlett would say "I'll think about it tomorrow."

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm really a horrible person.. Mr Ng Chun Kiat has just asked him brother to send me a msg to ask me to return him the money and all the stuff.

*tIng raises her eyebrow.*

I dunno what should my reactions be?! Seriously, i want to laugh. Its like he wants the money and stuff back but had no guts to even send me a msg? *laughs* And apparently he wants the Nokia 6100 back, the $170 and everything. Fine.. I oso dun wan to keep them. So i asked him to give me back the wet tissues i left at his place, the straw stars that i folded for him, the tee shirts that i bought for him and also not forgetting the Nokia phone that i found and he traded it in for his own phone. Apparently, he had thrown them away. So i told him i'll deduct the cost of those things from the $170 that i owe him. And the bill goes like this:

1) Nokia phone = $100
2) 2 Tee shirts i bought in Thailand = $20
3) 1 Tee shirt i bought from Harley Davidson = $30
4) 40 straw stars (i bought 1 drink each time) = $1.20 X 40 = $48

Total (which he owes me) = $ 198

$198 - $170 (which i owe him) = $28.

He owes me $28. And i'm going to cut up the Zara jacket, dismantle the Nokia 6100, cut the socks he bought and scratch the CD he bought for me before giving it back to him. *shrugs*


P/s: I've already discounted for him already. I'm nice!

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Had trouble concentrating the whole day.. As usual, i reached work around 10.50am and started to set up the fair outside the shop. I was sOoO busy throughout the whole day that i couldn't get my daily supply of coffee. *pouts* Honestly, I felt that i don't function as well without drinking coffe.. I need my COFFEE.. I think Starbucks should consider making me their VIP member.. I go through like 2 big cups a day! And i don't drink Coffee bean! I'm awfully loyal!!

Anyway, have been working so hard lately that i hardly noticed that its that close to CNY! I've worked like 8 days in a row, 10 hours straight (tomolo's the 9th!). Seriously, i think i work too much.. I feel tired both physically and mentally.

*tIng falls apart, dropping nuts and bolts all over the floor.*

Things happened so quickly that i haven got time to do anything for myself, let alone think about ME. Like i need new paddings for my shoes.. eyebrow trimming.. need new heels for work.. need new bras.. boxer underwears from Topshop.. new bags..



I need more time for ME. I want to spend more time with ME. I miss being with ME alone. Its like i'm having a long distance relationship with ME. When i blog, its like i'm emailing ME.

*tIng lets out a soft sigh.*



Did i mention that i met Patrick today on the bus? Apparently, he's sick and was on his way to the hospital. One thing about Patrick is that he's really one of the nice guys that i know BUT he just doesn't have to lady's luck! He's like always having crush on some gal but the gal always rejects him for some unknown reason. *shrugs* Maybe its true that gals like bad men? Maybe its just an addiction?! Are we gals all sadists? Why do we all enjoy being ill treated by men? Well its about time to get someone who treat us right!

Was looking at the the calendar just now when it suddenly dawned on me that even though its the CNY holidays, i'm not exactly FREE?! Its like everyday there are plans.

Tue
Working from 11am to 3pm and afterwards i'm going to do some last minute shopping with Daphne and Candice. Dinner at home. After dinner activities to be confirmed with Su ken and Patrick.

Wed
Visiting my aunt and my fave nephews and nieces. (Mental note to self: Buy candies for them tml!) After that would be meeting with Candice and Daphne for more shopping and gathering at Mr Fang's place.

Thurs
Meeting Huilin and gang at Woodlands before we head to Yufeng's house. Did i forget to mention that she just gave birth? We are going to visit her! Cant wait to see her daughter!

Fri
Made plans to go to Sentosa, with or without company.

Sat
Working, but trying to see if i can get off..

Sun
Working! Damm!

Mon
Made plans to meet Candice and Daphne for V-day! Yes yes.. Its an angels' outing!

*pHeWz* Boy, am i just exhausted from just typing out my plans! Really.. I just wanna lie flat and stone as long as possible.


*tIng drops on the floor, staring blankly at the celiing.*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Am super super hungry now.. Didn't eat anything today other than a piece of bread in the morning.. However, i did drank a whole of coffee today.. Had like 2 large Starbucks coffee.. Dunno why i just had no mood to eat even though i was hungry.. *shrugs* Maybe its because i was feeling fluish the whole day?!

*tIng stuff tissue up her nose, breathing only through her mouth.*

Saturday nite.. Am not going to watch movie tonight.. Instead, i went shopping alone at Citylink after work. Went into this shop and bought like 3 tops there.. One pink strips off shoulder, One black netted off shoulder and one white jacket.. Suddenly i'm quite obsessed with off shoulder tops. I think its kinda sexy when wore with jeans. *winkz* I think i got nice shoulders so must show it off! =P Will take photos and upload it later..

I think i shop like a man. I don't spend alot of time, trying on all the tops and take very long to decide on the colour and stuff. I try, i like and i buy. 3 steps.. SIMPLE. I cant stand indecisive people. I do get some female customers who spend like 3 hours trying on every colour and every style and den end up unable to decide. Its soOo sOO sOO irritating.. *tsk tsk*

After buying the tops, i went to MPH just to check out some books. And guess what! I found the book, "Can you keep a secret?" !! Had to buy it like IMMEDIATELY. *grinz* I like chick lit.. I'm a very chick lit kind of person. *blushes* I know this makes me look quite shallow but i like leh!
Walked around a bit more and den went to HMV... Saw the table full of CDs that were priced at 3 for $20.. Bought 4 CDs (David Tao, Kylie, Blur and Leslie Cheung)..

*tIng is very satisfied with her shopping, but unfortunately is $200 poorer!*

No plans to meet anyone tonight.. Not Roger.. Not even Su ken and gang for supper.. Am just going to kick back and enjoy my book and music!

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Don't really have anything to blog about today... Jus wanna say that sometimes things happen just when you least expect i.. Is it possible that it might turn out to something good? I'm keeping mum until i'm sure of this.. *winkz*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Ah ma's ShoEs 

Took down the previous post cause i was re-reading my blog and really had a very good laugh at myself. Silly me.. I'm just who i am. Why should i be bothered by what others said about me? Esther, Ginger, Kiat and all the rest of the people in NTU? Hmm...i cant decide which version i like better? A slut? Or a pathetic gal who goes around hooking NTU guys? *considers seriously* I guess i like the second one better.. As least i'm supposed to be having sex in the second version... *shrugs* Better than nothing right?

First of all, I've never denied the fact that i'm a slut. *laughs* Read my previous posts, i'm a slut/bitch/tramp. Not that it is a fact to be proud of but neither am i ashamed of myself. *shrugs* Hello, not going to pretend to be innocent here.. Is there anything wrong with being comfortable with my sexuality? And going to NTU means i'm a bitch? *giggles* And rumours has it that i'm easy to pick up and brought home for a fuck?! Hahaha.. Please someone fuck me.. Cause i think my virginity is growing back! I need a fuck soon! If i am so easy to pick up, why am i still alone and not having sex?! *considers* If i make it to my birthday without having sex, i'm getting a vibrator for myself. A PINK ONE.

*tIng laughs at how superficial the world can be.*

Oh.. before i forget.. I love attention. They are quite right when they say i'm attention grabbing kind of girl. I'm such an exhibitionist~~!! Absolutely proud of my body and ain't afraid to show it off. I mean, surely you cant expect me to flaunt my sagging breasts and thunder thighs when i'm 80 years old?! *raises her eyebrow* How scary can that be? *shivers*

After reading his blog, i really laughed. I'm not quite sure we are talking about the same person here. *smiles* I mean, he dated me.. Yet he had to listen to other people explain me to him? Esther and Ginger?

*tIng counts using her fingers.*

They like met me for less than 5 times each, each time is around less than a full day. And they actually understood me very well enough to explain all my thoughts and feelings? Who is the person they are talking about?! I think its just a figure of their own fuzzy imagination. *giggles* Even i don't dare to say i understand myself that much, and they actually do?! Maybe they should explain myself to me?! What a joke! This will go down in the Hall of Fame in my relationship history. Its a real classic.

I'm much happier today. Bought new shoes, went to TM to meet Su ken and Ah boon for dinner.. Had ice cream.. Yummy.. Will put up new photos of my shoes later..

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Sleepless night.. Tossed and turned in my bed but i couldn't find peace in my heart i that longed for. I refuse to let this be on my mind. I really want to cry but tears would not come to my eyes. I want to feel the pain inside me, that was once so familiar. But i cant. What's wrong?


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Was watching this episode of “Sex and the City” about the ex boyfriends. I don’t deal very well with ex bfs. You see, I don’t particularly fancy hearing anything about their present girlfriends. Especially NOT when they are having a wonderful time together! I don’t want to hear about it and have to go through the “Why isn’t it me?” phrase again.. Its not like I haven’t tried being friends with my ex. It just didn’t work out. *shrugs* I prefer not to know anything. Even if I met them on the streets some day, I’ll rather pretend that I don’t know them at all.

*tIng looks around the room.*

I’ve always wondered how some couples could be very good friends even after their breakups? It seems like such a good and polite thing to do. But I’m not sure the thing about being happy for your ex bfs is suitable for me. Most of the time I wished they are either eaten by monsters or kidnap to another planet by aliens. *shrugs* Well, what can I say? I just don’t want them around me. Sure, they can be happy by all means. Just don’t let me know ok? I hate you and your gf. Period.

I think if I’m someone’s gf, I would appreciate it very much indeed if his ex gf steer clear. I mean its already so hard to try to hold on to a relationship, without having external forces.aka.ex gfs interfering. Gosh.. And not forgetting the danger of going into the murky grey area! *tsk tsk* That’s why I never never talk to my ex bfs anymore. I think its for the good of all of us.

I don’t know if the part about guys choosing “simple girls” over “complicated girls” is true? Does it mean I’m too complicated for a man to understand and that’s why I’m not in a relationship? Or am I just a “wild girl”, waiting for the right guy to tame me down and take me for the ride of my life?! (Yesssh.. pun intended!) *winkz* I think all of my ex bfs found me too complicated to handle. *shrugs* But I’m not going to get all defensive and say things like I don’t agree with them. I guess I wanted things that were very different from what they want. Case closed.

*tIng puts all the ex bfs files into the cupboard and locks them up.*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

mY LeGs 

Back home from another day's work.. Kinda fun today cause Candice was here and it was like a gals outing.. Had lotsa of stuff to talk about..

Actually my day would have been quite good except for the fact i received an email this morning from Levi.aka.Bf who broke up without a proper reason. *shrugs* You know, the last thing i want right now is to hear from my ex bfs. Seriously, since ex means in the past which means not in the present and definately NOT in the future, they should stay in the past and just stay away from me! I don't wanna know what's going on with your life and i certainly DO NOT want you to know anything about mine. Don't read my blog anymore. Its not doing you any good by knowing more about my life. I simpley refuse to entertain ex bfs anymore. Enough is enough. There should be a law stating that after you break up, you should just disappear~~! Like vanish into the thin air or something...

Oh by the way, since i'm on the topic of ex bfs, Kiat.aka.the Unfaithful one has found himself a new gf. *Hurrays!* I don't know how should i react to this.. Should i be happy for him or should i be sad for the gal? *considers* Hmm.. I cant really decide.. Well, guess the only thing i could do was to grab the shortest skirt and my strappy heels from my closet and head out! *shrugs* I did feel alot better after wearing my skirt.


Was actually going to Zouk tonight but everyone else was broke and din want to go. Daphane and Candice both had something on. So i came home ALONE. *rolls her eyes* Oh.. I'm NOT dateless this v day!! *more hurrays~~!* Daphane, Candice and I are going out! Its a threesome! But i cant decide who i love more.. *aWww*

I've ordered two new books from Amazon.. They should be arriving soon.. I hope they'll come before CNY so i could bring them along when i go to Sentosa. Did i mention that i'm going Sentosa? I jus wanna go.. With or without my frens.. Maybe i'll just go alone and have some peace to myself. Its been a long time since i have some quality time with MYSELF. Gosh.. Sometimes, its like i feel to suffocated. Whether its on the train, bus or just walking along the streets! There's just TOO MANY PEOPLE! Maybe i should move to North Pole or something.
Life's too short to be spent with unnecessary people. I need some peace.

*tIng hides in her closet, locking everyone OUT.*


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Just when you think things are going well on the surface, the big current pulls you from under and swallows you without a trace. I want to scream, shout and cry the fuck out.



I need to talk to someone. Talk to someone about anything. Anything to distract me. Tonight, just talk to me. *lets out a sigh.* I need someone.. Man or Woman.. I don't care.

Held Daphane's hand just now after work.. Felt kind of strange.. Maybe its because i've been yearning for physical intimatacy that i no longer cared if the person is a male or female. Or maybe i'm so disappointed in men that i've fallen for gals instead? *shurgs*

I don't know.. My mind's a whirl.. I just wanna find a guy and throw myself at him. *shrugs* On second thoughts, its not worth it. I've done it before and all i got was nothing. Absolutely nothing but a shadow. But i'm not a shadow for goodness sake! I'M NOT A FUCKING SHADOW. STOP SAYING THINGS LIKE TAT. Its not that i'm hard to fathom. Its either they are too busy trying to change me to someone that i'm not OR they are not that into me at all. I've been hurt too times that i cant remember what its like to be in love. Na behz..

*tIng throws her hands up in the air.*

I'm giving up. I don't feel like falling in love. I just wanna pretend that i'm having fun. Or do i really mean that? *rolls her eyes*

Me, being ME, will always try to solve the problem. Since i cant find the prefect man, i guess i'll have to stare the problem straight in the face and MAKE ONE!

*tIng takes out flour, eggs and water and mixes them in a bowl.*

I'm quite sure i'll be able make a perfect man. Mould him into the Prince Charming of my dreams. *starts to knead the dough* I think i'll add some humour and wit. Perhaps a dash of sexiness.. Not forgetting the most important of all.. charms! *continues to shape the dough*

You know.. If he turns out "mouldy" instead of well moulded, I can always just eat him up! *shurgs*

*tIng pops her perfect man into the oven and turns the knob for 10 mins*

While he's "baking" in the oven, i guess i'll read my book ("Sex and the City") for awhile before i sleep.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.