Pig Trotters for Sale  

I'm depressed! I dun know why! I just am fucking hell depressed! Argh!

*tIng slams her head against the wall repeatedly.*

I blame no one for my emotions. I don't blame myself.. I don't blame my friends or family..


Its bad enough to be depressed.. But NOT knowing why you are depressed?! Damm.. What's worse? *shakes her head* I think i'm mentally unstable.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

8 pills and 20ml of diSguStiNg bRoWn fLuId 

tHe MoSt fAsHiOnAbLe fIsHnEt sOcKiNg 

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Jus got home from the Chinese seiseh.. My left foot is all wrapped up like a ba zhang.aka.rice dumpling..

*tIng pulls her foot to her face and smells it.*

Yucks.. Smelly chinese herbs *pui pui pui* I was almost about to scream when he started to rub my foot. I had to grip the sides of my chair to stop myself from kicking him in the face and jumping off the chair! *shrugs* The seiseh said that i'll have to keep it dry and it wun get well immediately, which means that i still have to go back fro treatment which also means he'll earn more money from me! *raises her eyebrow* And i'll still have to eat 8 (yes.. 8!!) blardy pills and syrup! What the hell!

But anyway, i'll take a photo of my foot and put it up later.. Its not everyday when you get you foot wrapped up in smelly herbal paste. *shrugs*

Went to watch "Finding Neverland" with Roger at GV TM yesterday.. Its becoming one of my regular thingy to do nowadays.. Saturday midnight movies.. I love watching movie.. Alone or with someone.. Was actually going to watch alone when Roger called me.. So we ended up watching it together. Bored Single People.. *tsk tsk*

Back to the movie.. I find it quite interesting.. I love the way the screen switches from reality to his imagination. I think the director did a great job, protraying his thoughts and emotions through screenplay. I love the costumes as well.. Everyone's clothes were beautiful with lots of details. I think the colour contrast is also very important. You'll find that in James M Barrie's imagination, richer colours were used as compared to the simple black, white and neutral tones used in his daily life. Its definately worth the $8.50!

I like getting books relating to movies that i've watched. I'm definately getting James M Barrie's book! *grinz* Seems that lately the books i'm interested in all do not come in paperback form.. I can only find the hardcover version, which i do not want to buy! Damm Amazon and Borders!

*tIng attempts points her third toe at the screen, but fails horribly due to the bandage.*

Am checking my mail now and here's my horoscope reading for tml:

Greetings Meiting --

Here is your single's love horoscope for Monday, January 31:

Your inventive, creative side should have a field day with everything the stars serve up. Watch for romantic sparks in unexpected spots -- possibly given off by your own crazy combustion.

Fucking hell... Are you sure? *checks around the corners* What sparks? What combustion? I dun see a damm thing ard here! Esp not with my swollen foot.aka.pig trotter! *whines* Sometimes, despite my firm beliefs for the horoscope, they can be quite ridiculous! *tsk tsk*
But nevertheless, i do still hope its true!

*tIng crosses her fingers!*

I dun know.. Guy i'm interested in seems to be avoiding me.. No calls.. No msgs.. No emails.. No nothing! I'm losing hope on him~~! I'm giving up soon! *shrugs*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Unsually cheerful mood today.. The reason for which is unexplainable!

*tIng grinz from ear to ear.*

Maybe is because sales is good today.. Maybe its because my foot is not hurting that much anymore.. Whatever it is, i'm just in a veRy vERy VERY good mood today! (^-^)

Went to meet Franklin yesterday night at 2am! Wanted to meet him because he was leaving for India next month.. Went to East Coast Park (near Bedok Jetty).. We sat at the beach to talk about stuff. I din realise that we could actually see airplanes from the beach! Throughout the night, i saw at least 3 or 4 planes and they were like SO CLOSE! I could actually see the lights from the planes very clearly! When the plane was coming towards us, the lights from the plane shined onto the surface of the sea, making it looked as though we could walk on it. Its soo beautiful. Too bad i was with Frank.. No someone special.. Sian diao.. *shrugs*

*tIng jumps around in joy, singing "Lalala..lalala"*

Was at work with Candice today.. We were talking when we realised that both of us actually like Chinese Opera! *giggles* Oh my god.. And i thought i was the only strange person who likes Chinese stuff. Yes yes.. I'm actually an "auntie", disguised as a 20 years old gal. I engage in "auntie activities" such as playing mahjong, going to temples and chinese operas. Sue me..

*tIng swings her fist around, threatening to punch you.*

Been thinking of catching the several performances such as Thunderstorm (Lei Yu) at the Esplanade.. Should be going with Candice.. *hurrays* I've found a khaki finally!

I think i sprained my left foot... *whines*

*tIng rubs her left foot with both hands.*

I cant step fully with my left foot. There's a pain on the center of my sole when i walk... How? I think i might need to see a chinese seiseh?! But i guess i'll have to wait till my next off day (which is Monday, 3 days away). *shrugs*

Ended work quite late today cause there was this lady customer who tried on many MANY pieces of clothes. I think she's quite oblivion to the fact that we are CLOSING. I hate it when customers do that. Irritating.. Sometimes, i just couldn't be bother with them. *sighs* That lady was especially annoying cause she kept asking for discounts.

*tIng raises her eyebrow.*

Oh come on.. She's carrying branded bag and wearing branded clothes and still asking for discount?! This is not Chinatown you know.. *tsk tsk*


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Orion's Belt 

Was walking home from the bus stop jus now... I looked up and realised that the moon looked very bright today.. Its kinda yellow.. not white white kind.. And there were lots of stars!! On a good day, you can actually see the Orion's belt! But everyone's too busy walking or doing stuff to stop and look at the stars. *shrugs* Will you slow down your pace to watch the stars with me?

The impending danger of an dateless V-day has been nerve-wrecking. I'm comtemplating whether i should work on the day. *considers* Maybe it'll be a good time to call out all the single gals frens for a great bash?! Its worth a thought.

Seriously, I'm running out of things to write about my mundane life. *shrugs* If you are expecting to read about a gal with really deep thoughts, a gal who always have opinions and views, I think you r better off reading Princess Diana's autobiography.

*tIng opens her head with a can opener.*

See, brain juices drying and cells are no longer active. I don't know what else to say anymore! *pulls her hair out* I guess i'll continue telling you more abt me den.

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Conversation with sister (who's a struggling journalist @ The Newpapers)

Sis: Ting, i got no new ideas for work leh? How? What are you young people interested in nowadays?

tIng (blue-faced): Nothing lor.. *concentrates on tv and laptop*

Sis: So do you guys like, engage in group sex or drugs?

*tIng turns away from the screen and stared at my sister for a moment)

tIng: Yeah.. Of course we do. I'm into cocaine and group sex.

*tIng turns to face laptop again, expressionless.*

Another normal conversation with my supposed-to-be normal family.. *shrugs*

Later that night..

Mum (before going to bed): I'm going to smoke pot now..

Ting (straight-faced): I'm into drugs and group sex.


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I've been thinking about changing this blogskin. I'm getting kinda sick of that. Couldn't decide on a more girly look or continue with this kind of dark angel look?! *considers*

Was surfing through the net when i chanced upon David Tao's website! So exciting! My fave singer has a site now. *jumps around in joy* Yeessh.. I love him! I love his songs! But his site is not fully developed yet. There are still some parts that are under construction. *shrugs* But anyway.. I'm going to get his album soon!

Went to make my replacement ic today and after that i went shopping with my mum. We went to Bugis and i bought 2 shawls @ $10 (black and white) and also a small sling bag. After that, i treated my mum to Sakae Sushi. We had a chicken teriyaki bento, chawamushi, somen and fried tofu! Yummy!! As soon as the food arrived on the table, i started to pig out! Must have look pretty bad though.. *tsk tsk* But nevertheless, after eating, i truly felt what happiness is! Happiness is having a stomach full of wonderful food.

*tIng licks the sides of her mouth.*

Well.. Have to stop now.. Going to shower and get to bed.. *yawnz*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Am watching this prog on tv now about this chinese movie called "Butterfly". Its about a married woman in her 30s who had to choose between her lesbian lover from her past and her family.

I think at some point of time, i was also confused. Coming from an all gals' school, i used to wonder if i was a lesbian. There was this gal from my class whom used to received lots of love letters from gals from other classes. I think its because she looked like a "he". Thats why she was so popular?! But anyway, till now, i do feel that the female's touch is much arousing than a male's touch. And the female body is DEFINATELY much more attractive than a male one.

But am i really a lesbian? Or am i just bisexual?! Is it normal to have sensual dreams about gals? I mean, i know for sure i would like to date guys and maybe (i said MAYBE) get married one day. I know what kind of wedding dress i want, where the wedding would be and etc. But its the "groom" part thats not very clear! Will it be a guy or gal? *shrugs* I don't know.

I would love to have a beach wedding and me and he/she would take our vows by the beach at sunset. The wedding dress would be a long white dress. But i would want a black princess dress as well during the photo shoot. There would be lots of fresh flowers all over and the scent they give off at night would be soo heavenly. *aWwW*

*tIng press BRAKE and snaps back to reality.*

Damm, what the hell was i talking about just now! I'm thinking too much again! *Yikes* Its true that every gal's dream is to find someone to love and spend the rest of their lives together. But am i really someone who will do it? Or will i get married for the sake of getting married?! (So that all the stupid relatives would shut their mouths up! But also not forgetting the amount of red packets and jewellery i'll get!) *grinz* Trust me, its gonna be ALOT.

But anyway, I think guys are really put off by the thought of going into a serious relationship. The idea of marriage would freak their little brains out. For instance, i've met someone and during one of the initial dates, i let him know for that i've thought about names of my children. (Yes.. I've thought of that.. If its a boy, his name will be Jerome and if its a gal, it would be Julie/Ashley), he'll most likely be so pressurised and feels the need to go into hiding. He'll spend the rest of his life on a tiny island somewhere far far away, surviving only on coconut juice and fish. Yupz.. *nods her head repeatedly* That's the extent he'll go in order to avoid me. *shrugs*

What to do? They can only rem 10 things at a time. *tsk tsk* Maybe thats why lesbian lovers are much better than male one?! They''ll most likely feel and think the same way about marriage as you. They would be very understanding towards your emotions and put up with your . (esp. during the time of the month) *considers*

Its been such a LOOONG day!! I've worked like 11 hours straight! Oh my god, my legs are breaking!

*tIng detaches her legs and hangs them in the cupboard.*

Would it be nice if we humans could detach parts of our bodies and recharge them as and when needed? Den we will not need to rest and we would be more efficient and functional! *considers seriously*

Today's sales was soo good, about more than $4k and that means i get about $130 plus for commission today! *grinz* But i wished i wasn't so busy.. Actually, I was in a pretty foul mood today because i was really, really vErY VERY busy and tired but i still had to smile and be NICE to all the customers. I had to fold like tons of cheong sums, blouses etc. At the end of the day, I could barely walk in my heels.

*tIng pops a chocolate raisin into her mouth.*

Yes yes.. I'm eating my fave chocolate covered raisins! I think i should treat myself to something nice after a hard day's work. *pat herself on the shoulders* Don't worry, i'm going to the gym tomolo.. Will not let myself balloon to the size of an elephant. (Though i think elephants are quite cute! They rank very high on my list of fave animals, coming close to pandas and penguins). My tooth is still swollen.. *rubs her cheek* How? I don't know what should i do about it. Would if ice helps? Maybe i should stop eating my chocolate raisin?! *raises her eyebrow* I don't think so

*tIng hugs her bowl of raisin tightly in her arms.*

Its my off day tomolo and i'm still going back to my work place. Cause my boss needs some flowers for decorations and i promised to help him get some pots of flowers from my mum's shop. *shrugs* No choice.. Looks like i'm fated to be at Millenia all my life! *tsk tsk*

Oddly enough no one's on Msn now.. I guess everyone's asleep or something. That's the bad part about being in retail line. When everyone's having their off days, you'll be working. When you are off, everyone has to work and none of them can accompany to shop. *sighs* But i have to say this, NOT everyone can be in service line. Some people just don't have the right kind of atitude for it. But yet more than 30% of Singapore's economy depends on the retail trade. *shrugs* I cant imagine a world without shopping! How to survive?! *pull her hair*

I'm really really tired.. I need a thai foot massage right about NOW! *whines* I think i should get new shoes for work..

*tIng sucks the chocolate off the raisin and chews it slowly*

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CLOSER 

Was walking to work from Cityhall to Millenia Walk as usual.. Felt hungry so i went into Breadtalk, hoping to get my fave hotdog bun (the kind with chilli sauce on it). Maybe its too early so they didn't have the bun that i want. *pouts*

*tIng stood there, holding the white plastic tray in one hand.*

Of course they had other kinds of hotdog buns. I stared at the buns for awhile, wondering should i compromise and settle for the other kinds instead?!

*tIng raises her eyebrow.*

I could compromise.. But i wouldn't be happy! *shakes her head vigorously* No No No.. I won't compromise. I won't settle for something i don't want! I cant do it with a hotdog! I cant do it witn MEN! *tsk tsk*

*tIng bang her head against the wall repeatedly.*

Argh.. Why am i comparing men with hotdogs? *considers* Maybe its because they are both *ahem* long and come in all shape and sizes?

Come to think of it, i haven been hearing from my boys.. Wonder how are they.. *rolls her eyes* Argh.. Let them do wat they want lar.. Cant be bothered..

Anyway, am going to wine bar with Candice and Daphane tml night so i might not be able to blogl. You know me.. the possibility of me getting stoned is pretty high.. *winkz*


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PleaSaNtLy pLuMp SiNgLetOn  

Just finished a hearty dinner *pats her tummy* and i'm feeling oh-so-jolly!

*tIng does her penguin dances around the room.*

Been quite busy at work these few days.. Maybe its because CNY is coming so everyone's buying oriental clothes. I think i'll be even more busy for the next two weeks. *shrugs* But i'm happy! Well, at least time passes quite quickly while i'm at work.

Am getting along very well with the part timers at my work place, Candice and Daphanie. They are going to a wine bar this friday and asked me to go along.. *considers* It'll be nice to hang out with a different group of friends. They are a more classy group i would say. A whole different class from my poly classmates (Huilin, Shiwei, Su Ken etc) and from my GV friends (Patrick, Didi, Boon etc) and also my Sports Club friends (Sally, Yanwen, Stan Teo and Chaiyang). I think they would appreciate the finer things in life with me.. Like for example.. I've been wanting to go to the Botero's exhibition but couldn't find anyone to go with me.. *whines* Maybe i could ask Candice to go with me instead.. She's half Japanese and half Chinese. She's very nice. And yes.. she's SINGLE!

*tIng wonders why are there so many great gals and no great guys?!*

I've always thought that life is like folding a blanket. Once you get the corners right, the rest will fall right into place. So right now, the work corner is right.. the family corner is also right.. the friends corner is also not bad.. What's lacking? *rolls her eyes* Yeesssh... Its the LOVE corner.. Unfortunately, after a series of dating, there's still not happily ever after in my story. How is it possible for me to have a functional relationship when guys always AWOL on me?

*tIng raises her eyebrows and crosses her arms*

This is fustrating.. *pulls her hair* Its like after one date and the guy NEVER calls till the next week! And that's not only one guy! What the hell is wrong with all the guys? Argh.. Cant go on like tat. *whines* Need my emotional bible..(which unfortunately is with Kathy). Fucking hell.. Ok enough is enough!

Opps.. Sudden thought! I want to get a girly doll dress! Pink with black lace.. *giggles* I want to complete my girly doll image! *toss her curls* Recently, my behaviour has been so girly, even i don't recognise myself! *gaspes in horror* I hope its just a phase.. This not really me.. Or is it the real me?


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Just received a call from my very vErY VERY long time buddy, Danny. Gosh.. Its been like so damm long since we last met each other. He and this other guy, Tim, are the only 2 persons i've been close to since primary school times. We are those kind of friends that meet up once in a very long time but still remain very close to each other at heart. I miss them.. *whines* We used to play around the void deck.. Soccer, chasing each other.. They never treated me like a gal..

No wonder i never fitted in to gals' school.. *shrugs*

And i must mention this! Danny has a fantastic body.. Very well toned indeed! Yummy! Don't get me wrong.. We are not sexually involved with each other or anything. But there was once we were at a chalet and we played a joke on him, locking him out of the chalet, wearing nothing but a white towel! EeeSh.. So eyecandilious! Haha.. Too bad he's attached! *awWw*

Did i mention before that i find the female toilet intimidating?! I never like going to the female toilet.. I once asked a guy friend if i could follow him into the male toilet. When he asked me why i wan to do that, i told him that there's too many females in the toilet and its scary.. *shrugs*

Anyway, after getting my hair permed yesterday, i've been feeling like a poodle! The curls are too curly (if there ever such a thingy). Nevertheless, even if i'm a poodle, i'm the PrIncEsS of all poodles! *winkz*

Am going to shower now.. Suddenly.. I feel so alone. *shrugs* No reason.. Just a feeling.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

If you believe in love at first sight... Take a closer look.

Those who love at first sight are traitors at every glance.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

As i'm typing this, my heart is hurting and there's a fucking big hole in my pocket.

*tIng turns out her pocket, exposing the big hole.*

My haircut costed a bomb! A nuclear bomb indeed! Don't ask me how much it costed cause i'll never tell you! *shakes her head*

I reached the salon around 1.30pm and was there for like 5 hours straight! Can you believe it? Yes, it too THAT LONG... They washed, cut and permed my hair. The guy used this big scary montrous looking machine to perm my hair.. My hair was rolled up in different big plastic curlers and the ends of the curlers were hooked to the machines by wires.. Then, it was heated up. I swear that my neck was breaking due to the weight of the curlers. And i had to sit there for like hours! *tsk tsk*

After that, i dyed and highlighted my hair too.. I know i said that i wun dye it but black hair with curls looked so auntie.. So i had no choice! *shrugs* Well, at least i finally got the lovely curls that i've always wanted.

*tIng tosses her head around, flaunting her curls.*

Will try to put up pics of my hair.. But you'll have to wait a few days cause the digital cam is with my sis..

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*tIng hobbles into the room and plops down in front of her laptop.*

My feet are killing me.. *tIng peels off the plasters from her toes.*

Even though i think that strappy heels look sexy and even a little kinky *winkz*, wearing them 3 days straight has been a real torture! Any more of this i might have to amputate my legs!

Am thinking of getting my hair permed tomolo at Hairitage (right next to my work place). My hair is soo flat, its as flat as the Changi airport runways... *vroom... an airplane glides across the sky*

I cant rebond my hair cause its too fine and i'm unwilling to dye it cause i like the china doll look.. So my only choice now is to perm it! Its not like those japanese cutie pie perm.. Its more like a dark romantic look. I'm definately NOT going to perm my hair at neighbourhood salons! I don't end up looking like poodle!! Its just too risky! *shrugs*

Have a very busy day tomolo.. Progs are as followed:

10am - Wake up and head to gym
Its been like 2 weeks since i've last been to the gym? I desperately need to sweat my guts out! Too much fats accumulating around my waist! Damm! Well, at least my legs are more toned now. I think its because i've been wearing heels and walking around in them (that includes climbing stairs!) has been a GREAT exercise for my thighs and calves! *grinz*

1.30pm - Appointment at Hairitage
Has an appointment with Ken Hong (he's an award winning hair stylist!). The fate of my hair is in his hands! Hope and pray all turns out well! *crosses her fingers*

4.30pm - Tea with Huilin
Am going to meet Huilin cause she just rebonded her hair and i'm supposed to give her comments. She spent like $250! *gaspes in horror* So expensive right!? The woes of being a gal.. *tsk tsk*

7pm - Dinner with Sally, Justin and Yanwen
Sooo busy.. Argh.. I forgot that I'm supposed to make an apppointment with my tattooist for my touch up this week but no one has the time to acc me down to Far East. Think i'll have to push it back AGAIN.

Am going to take a shower now and after that its going to be CHANNEL SURFING time!

*tIng walks out of the room, whistling to her self.*

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Jus got home from TM.. Met Roger to help him pick out a shirt and for a movie.. Had dinner at Pastamania (his treat!).. Went to watch “Alfie”.. Jude Law is soo charming! It’s a nice movie.. Very nicely filmed and you have to pay attention to the big signboards at the backdrops cause the sort of represent his thoughts at that moment. Very interesting portrayal of the modern man..

This whole issue about monogamy got me thinking these few days.. esp when I’ve been watching “Sex and the City” religiously every night.. There’s this episode about monogamists is actually worth a thought. I mean, are humans actually suitable for monogamy? Or is it just a plain big joke that the world played on us? Is polygamy really a crime or is it just primal instincts?

Let’s see.. There’s a couple of ways we could look at this issue.. In the scientific way, men, in general, would want to propagate their genes by bedding as many women as possible. That’s because the actual chances of their sperms hitting the *lets out a cough* target is quite low. So in order to increase their chances of reproduction, they want to have sex with as many women as they can. Its actually sort of a primal instincts. Men in the millennium acting just the same way as their ancestors did millions of years ago. *shrugs* So much for evolution..

Lots of men in the human history are polygamists. Look at all the Emperors of China and their wives.. Kings in all over the world. Islam laws allows men to marry more than one wife. So what went wrong in the process? *wonders*

Is monogamy an invisiblel chain that we’ve put around ourselves? Why do we still hear of men and women who cheat on their partners? Even though we have watched tv serials about it, known friends’ friends who were cheated by some guy/gal and also cheated on some one in some way on another ourselves, why do people still do it?

*tIng cracks her head trying to figure this out.*

Maybe its just a big joke after all. Maybe humans are not meant to be with that one person only? Seriously, with all those temptations and options out there, who would want to be dating exclusively with one person?

Even I dare not say that I’ll be forever faithful to one person. *shrugs*

But I guess why we humans are superior to other beings (or so we thought? Maybe when you were throwing a banana at a monkey in the zoo, he’s laughing at your stupidity?) is the our ability to reason and restraint our behaviour. That’s why there are people who can be 100% happy being only with one person.

I’m confused! I think I need to sleep.. *yawnz* If I think anymore, I might go nuts.

*tIng snaps her finger and turns magically into a can of Shandong Premium peanuts!*

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Jus got home from Kathy's grandma's wake.. My feet are KILLING ME!

*tIng takes out a chainsaw and starts sawing her heels into pieces.*

Whoever invented the heels deserves to be boiled in hot water, deep fried and cut into a million pieces!!! You cant imagine the pain my feet are going through right NOW! And there's two blardy blisters on both of my little toes! Fucking hell.. One of the blister just broke and the skin came off.. This is just great! *puts her hands on her hips*

*tIng sets fireworks into the air.*

Started my first day at Fang's today.. Got to wear those very nice chinese looking jackets... It was maroon in colour but i thought it made me look abit older though. Learnt a thing or two about chinese jade and silk.. Quite interesting.. Am thinking of reading up more about it.. Maybe borrow books from the library..

My boss dropped a bomb on me today.. She told me that the shop is going to be closed for a week during CNY! Fuck fuck fuck! Damm.. Now i have a whole week off, with nothing to look forward to! Anyone has any part time to recommand?! The last thing i want to do is to spend the first seven days of CNY, staring at my relatives! Please! Some one save me!

*Azan: If you are reading this, i'm not going to get you to make up and pretend to be me. Perish that thought pls! You in make-up and dress have been giving nightmares. Its a very disturbing thought you know! I don't want a husband who wants to wear my clothes!*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Was re-reading the book "He's just not that into you" again at work. Everytime i read it, i vowed to myself that i would open my eyes BIG BIG and steer clear of any guys who was a potential jerk. I'm going to keep it in my bag. Its like an amulet.. Chase away all the bad guys!

*tIng opens her @_@ BIG BIG and stares at the screen.*

Am thinking about starting my own business today at work. Was thinking of getting a push cart thingy but after talking to Raymond, i've realised the costs are too high. Decided that i should move on to something like online retailing instead. But i just cant decide what to sell.. I'm considering products such as jewellery from India or Soy candles from US. *considers*

*tIng puts a finger on her chin and thinks.*

Anyone has any ideas?

These days i've been so routine in my life, even i'm begining to bore myself to death. I go work and come home. Work and home.. work and home.. I've realised that i even eat the same things! Gosh.. Look in the dictionary, under the word "BORING" and you'll most likely see my face there. The only other person who might beat me to the position would be my finance lecturer. *shrugs* She wins hands down.

My life is so routine..When i order drinks it'll be either coke or ice lemon tea. When i order bubble tea, it'll always be red pearl milk tea. When i buy noodles, it'll be minced pork noodles with chilli. When i order Starbucks, it'll be a Espresso Frap or a Caramel Machiato. When i go to Sakae, its definately chawamushi, somen etc. I don't even have to think. No wonder my brain cells are going rusty.


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loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Been having this throbbing pain in my head the whole day.. My head ached soo much that i'm sure that there was an invisible man was trying to split my head open with a chisel and hammer. Felt like my head had swelled up to the size of a football and was about to burst anytime.

*tIng's head starts to swell till it explodes, splattering brain fluids all over the room.*

Wanted to buy Mac cheese burger home for dinner.. Walked into Mac and pointed to the pic which looked like a cheese burger to me.. It must the headache.. I ended up ordering a quater pounder instead of my cheese burger. Damm... What the hell? Never mind.. Its the same anyway.. Two slices of bread, a piece of meat and cheese in the middle, just a couple of pounds more. *shrugs*

I've got a pimple on the back of my neck. Strange place for a pimple to grow isn't it? *rolls her eyes* Am not going to blog any further.. Going to bed NOW..

*tIng goes into her room, leaving a DND sign on the door knob.*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

With less than a month to Chinese New Year, i'm going in to a state of panic and anxiety.

*tIng tugs her hair and runs around the room, screaming.*

For the past two years, i was able to escape the torture of housing visiting and pain-in-the-neck relatives asking the same routine questions over and over again because i had to work. This year, however, i don't have to work during CNY! How?! What am i going to do? *frowns*

Its not that i hate my relatives. I'm allergic to them. Its quite sad that we cant choose who to be related to. Frankly, if i could choose, i would rather be related to the vermin Adolf Hilter. At least Hilter was nice to his family members.

I've been thinking of excuses to "siam" CNY. So far, i've come up with these few:

1) Hide away in any island despite the danger of tsunami.
2) Pretend to be involved in the research for perfect men.
3) Get in an accident.
(though obviously not life threatening kind)
4) Go missing.
(Leave evidence to mislead ppl that i've been kidnapped by aliens)
5) Commit a crime.
(Serious enough to land myself in lockup for 48 hours)
6) Pack myself into a cardboard box and send myself to Africa.
(How many stamps are needed?)

I cant think of any more excuses! I need help! Somebody, just remove me from the surface of this Earth.

*tIng climbs into her cupboard and locks herself inside.*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Am on my bed with my laptop, listening to the 3 doors down which I bought earlier today. I think its better for me to blog alone in my room cause I can concentrate better and let thoughts flow more smoothly, without constant distractions, ranging from Durffy’s barkings, sounds from the TV or just my mum and sis making Sakak do absolutely ridiculous stunts. Peace and Quiet. *phews*

*tIng wipes off imaginary beads of sweat from the forehead.*

Last Saturday at Cecelia’s chalet, I overheard Yv saying that she’s trying to lose weight because Francis (Yv’s ex.aka.bastard who cheated on her) said that if she becomes thinner, he’ll come back to her. *faints*

What kind of man will actually makes this kind of ridiculous request to a gal? Its just absolutely, completely senseless.

*tIng throws her hands in the air in pure disbelief.*

Wait a miunte.. Cool down. Let’s take a step back and try to analyse this in the most logical and sensible way that we could. What the fuck is he trying to say?

Could a man ditch a gal that he loves (or so he says) just because of the few extra pounds on her body? Is the physical appearance more important than the actual inner beauty of the person? Is the saying “Looks doesn’t matter” just nothing but an urban myth? What kind of morbid city are we living in?

How many women out there in this world have spent their lives trying out every single diet, facial creams and anything and everything that claims to improve their looks?

*tIng looks around.* Even I’m guilty of that. *gasps in horror*

What’s wrong now? Cant we find true love without beauty? If that guy loves you, shouldn’t he love you and everything about you? Then why is it that we gals often get guys saying stuff about our looks or hair? I used to have this ex bf that took the task of correcting me as his personal duty. I remember, with much displeasure, that there was once when he told me the way that I walked was “too sloppy”. And Kiat once said that I looked like an “ah gua” (transvestite) when I carried a handbag or when I put on makeup.

*tIng raises her eyebrow and crosses her arms.*

Screw you guys. If you don’t think that I’m physically attractive or mention that I’m less than perfect, don’t even bother about coming near me. I’m supposed to be the love of your life, apple of your eyes and the GODDESS of your universe. If you are not even worshipping the ground that I walked on, you really shouldn’t be allowed within 500km radius around me. *grinz* I know this may sound abit egoistic, but I want to you love me for what I am. And YES, and that includes the fats around my thighs and butt.

Gals, you are HOT STUFF. If your guy actually dares to criticise your looks, even in the slightest manner, dump him. WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WAITING FOR? Pack him in the plastic bag and throw him down the rubbish chute. The only thing you should be losing are not your fats, but the guy next to you.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Promised to blog in detail today.. Better start NOW..

Spent the day shopping with Colin in town.. Actually wanted to touch up my tattoo at Far East but unfortunately the guy Vik was busy the whole day so i had to postone it till next week. Saw a few piercings ard the ear that i might wan to get. *considers* I'm not sure when i'll be getting it but i guess it'll depend on my mood.

Walked ard Far east, Wisma and Taka and Heeren.. Finally bought the 3 doors down CD that i've been eyeing on for a VERY long time.. Afterwards, we went for a movie "Kungfu Hustle" at Cineleisure. Its quite a funny show. I like Stephen Chow.. He's so funny.. Although its abit on the lame side, but nevertheless its still quite good. After the show, we went to Taka again cause i wanted to buy a new discman. Ended up buying this white colour discman.. So pretty.. Actually wanted the blue one but Colin said that the white one looked more classic and retro.. I think its quite true. Anyway, the blue is not my fave colour.

On the way home, we saw Sharon (frm Sports Club) on the train. So long time never see her.. She's now a netball coach for secondary schools teams. Also happily single like me! She also had her fair share of bad men in her life. Why are there so many great single gals but so few great single guys? *wonders*

Sorry for blogging to little these few days.. Been having "blogger's block".. Cant really think of what to write.. Maybe its because my life has been kinda stagnant and routine? Or maybe my thoughts have been in a state of confusion and i cant get them to settle down long enough to write them?

*tIng walks away, shaking her head.*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Not really in the mood for blogging today cause i'm too tired, both physically and mentally.. Will blog in detail tomolo.. I PROMISE!

Will just post this song by Avril.. I think its very fitting for my life right now..


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Nuaning.. One of my most favourite activities on a Saturday afternoon. Nothing beats lying on the couch, watching tv and doing absolutely nothing that contributes anything to the rest of the world. Well, then again, we must not forget eating, which like nuaning, is also another of my fave activities. They are complimentary to each other. These two activities co-exist together, with of course me very much involved with the two of them. *winkz* Threesome, It’s a complicated relationship.

Was supposed to meet Roger today for shopping but he had cheer leading (yes, you did not read wrongly, its CHEER LEADING). So we postponed it. Then Franklin was online yesterday so I asked him if he wanted to go shopping with me since he’s off today. He said ok, so we agreed to meet at 1pm outside Centerpoint.

Unfortunately, he called at 11am this morning to tell me that he couldn’t make it. Said something like he had errands to do and he’ll call me as soon as he finishes them. I was sleeping when he called so I was like “Uh Uh Uh.. Ok..Bye.”

Actually, I don’t think its because I just woke up. Its more like I cant be bothered. *shrugs* Its not the company I care about, its SHOPPING that I’m more concerned about. You know what I mean? To me, they are just my temporary “bfs”. We go out, pretend to be a couple and have fun. That’s it and that’s all that there will be. No strings attached. Nice, isn’t it? Well, some people may think its shallow and stuff (and by some people I refer very much to that one person), but these guys aren’t serious abt me and I know it very well. Thank you for the concern. But don’t you realise that we are just taking what we need from each other? Its not that i'm afraid of loving, i just simply don't want to. *shrugs*

Am going to Cecelia’s chalet later.. Meeting Seng at 11 plus. Su ken, being very thoughtful, told me that Kiat is going to be at the bbq later.

*tIng raises her eye brow.*

This is the bad thing about having mutual friends. You get situations like meeting ex bfs at functions. Its worse when it’s a messy or bitter breakup. But nevertheless, I’m not too bothered. Its Cecelia’s birthday and the main thing should be about her and not him, not me and not our problem.

Oh, I must mention this.. I have just realised that Colin actually knows Tingying.

*tIng starts singing “It’s a small world afterall..It’s a small world afterall.”

Singapore is just that small. And who’s Colin you might ask? I think he’s one of the few decent guys left. Actually, he’s Sally’s friend and we went clubbing on the 29th together. Been talking to him for quite some time now. At least he’s decent enough not to try anything funny and he actually remembers things that I told him.

Got to go.. Have to eat my dinner now. Been eating and sleeping the whole day.. Ah.. This is life!



*tIng takes her hp and throws it against the wall."

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

When God created Man, he took one look at him and said, "Surely i can do better than this?"


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

As i am blogging this, I am actually blue-faced, tight lipped and expressionless. Reason? I've just applied a face mask from H2O. And it stings like hell. God damm it. Beauty is a religion and i'm its most faithful follower. *tsk tsk* The worse thing? I cant sneeze! For the fear of cracking my mask.. The pain of being a woman.. *sighs*

Went to make a police report at Simei NPC today.. I din know that they have to check the bags of all the people who enter the NPC. Tight security.. Wonder why.. *considers* Saw this very cute police guy.. Oh.. I love men in uniforms.. *winkz*

Anyway, since i'm blogged about the the different functions of men to women yesterday, i might as well talk about the functions of women to men.

The Fun Gal
You see, men of different ages need women for different purposes. A man in his early 20s need a gal who can have fun with him. At this age, they don't need women with too much emotional baggage. Meaning, they are less likely to want to talk about or let alone hear about future commitments. Physical appearances are important for guys in this age group.

The Wife
Men in their 30s need women who are presentable and understanding. It would also be best if the women can help them in some way or another in terms of career. They would want the women to be from similar or at least of comparable background. At the end of the day, men usually end up marrying women in this group. Cause they know that these women will raise their kids, pay their bills and also cook and clean for the family.

The Sweet Young Thing
In their 40s, men (both married and not married) wants to relive their glorious past. They want young sweet gals. Of course, by this time, their spirits may be willing but their flesh would be, quite unfortunately, *lets out a slight cough* weak. Nevertheless, being financially comfortable compensates for everything. Given a choice, i would choose to be in this group rather than the wife. *shrugs*

Now, you see men do use different women for different functions. *thinks* At the end, men needs women and women need men. This sucks. Think i'll just have to carrying waiting for the right one to come along. *frownz*

Anyway, bought a new book at MPH on my way home. Its "Olivia Joules and the Overactive Imagination" by Helen Fielding. I'm those type of people who likes chick lit. Because its easy to read and very light hearted. I like Helen Fielding. She makes me laugh. Not many people can make me laugh these days. Azan makes me laugh. *considers*

The other day, i was msging him, told him that i'm young and innocent. Guess what he replied me? "Dear, if you are reeking of innocence, Pam Anderson would be a virgin."

*tIng laughs and rolls on the floor.*

He's right. I'm far from innocent. But as i always say "A smart woman is one who acts innocent." *grinz* Btw, Azan taught me a new word. Incarnadine. Its another word for pink. *wide smile*


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

I'm upset! I'm pissed off! I've jus lost my card holder!

*tIng slams her head against the wall repeatedly!*

Argh! Why? Why am i so careless?! Now i have to make a police report for my NRIC and my ezlink card. *whines* I've jus msged all of my friends to tell them how upset i am about losing my card holder. I need the attention since i dun have a bf whom i can whine to! I'm upset! And i'm going to sit at home and sulk all night. Think i'll eat my raisins. I'm sure i'll feel better.

*tIng pops a few raisins into her mouth.*

See.. I feel so much better already. *continues eating* Let me see.. Who did i msg? I msg Azan, Roger and Colin. On MSN, i told Su ken, Alex and this guy (i forgot his name?). What can i say? I'm crying out for attention. *shrugs*

Anyway, received another request on Friendster again.. This time, its this guy called Roy, asking me out for a night spin. Huh? Whats this about? I don't even know him. And also another one on Wholivesnearyou, this guy called Stanley. Well, its ok. I don't mind knowing more friends. *shrugs*

Ok, now you guys may think that i'm a complete slut/tramp/bitch for flirting with all these guys. Maybe i should explain myself abit here..

You see, after dating so many guys for like the past 3 years and STILL NO HAPPILY EVER AFTER, i've come to realise something very important. Functional relationships sometimes doesn't mean only with one man. It may also mean functional relationships with different men of different functions. And how is this so?

For example, men to me now have different functions. Men like Roger can accompany me for shopping trips. Men like Colin can accompany for clubbing. Men like Azan (my darling hubby) can talk crap with me all the time. And also, men like Franklin would more than gladly have a ONS with me, with the condition that i pay him of course. (But why would i pay him for sex?) *considers* So in this case, monogamy just doesn't work out. Oh i must also mention, men like my ex bfs also serve a function and that is to remind constantly how stupid i was to put up with the shit they did to hurt me.

Its not that i'm cynical about love or anything. I still am hopeful about love. Its just that i don't think i believe in it as much as i did in the past. Beside, i'm enjoying myself too much now. I can come and go as I please. I like it now when i can do whatever i like, without having to consider about other people's feelings. Neither do they care too much abt me. Occasionally, some guy may start to feel more and wants to take things to another level. So i'll have to just remind him gently, "Lets not complicate things." *smiles* To me, freedom is too much a price to pay for transient love. Maybe it would also be correct to say that i'm getting commitment phobic. *shrugs*

Before i log off, i have a few updates on whats going on this weekend.

Firstly, Sunset bay outing has been certified dead. Huilin has ditched me for Vincent. Yanwen ditched me for her bf cause its his birthday. Kathy is physically unavailable for water related activities. Moreover, they just found a human skull along on of the beaches at Sentosa. So, with much regret, we'll have to put it on hold. I'm pissed. *pouts* Its ok. I'll just go shopping.

Secondly, its Cecelia's birthday on Sat and there will be a chalet at Pasir Ris. So my presence has be requested at 8.00pm. I don't know what to get her for the birthday. Most likely i'll be sharing a Levi's voucher witht the GV gang. Speaking of Levi's, as some of you may know i have an ex bf named Levi (pronounced as "Levy"). He dumped me over a year ago, for reasons i still am not sure about. Ever since then, i've refused to talk or wear anything related to Levi's jeans. However, since its the new year, i've decided to forgive him. I'll start wearing Levi's again.

Thirdly, i've just quitted my job at Inizio and Etc. Am going to work for Mr Fang starting next week. Hope everything will go well. Wish me luck everyone!

*tIng crosses her fingers.*

Ok.. I think i've blogged enough for today. Be back tml.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

I am officially in LOVE! He's sweet, yummy and oh-so-candylious! There he was, waiting for me to look at him, and it was just love at first sight! Fatal attraction, i would say!

I put him in me slowly, letting him rest on my tongue. I rub my tongue against it lightly, tasting his sweetness. He starts to melt.. I can feel his sweetness flowing down into me.. I give him a little suck, taking my time to enjoy his taste in my mouth. Bit by bit, he gives himself to me, expsosing his innermost self. The most tender part of him.. As he enters me, i can feel a warm sensation running down my back.. Oh Oh Oh.. Its so orgasmic!


*chuckles* Bet you thought i was talking about some guy rite? I think i'll make a very good writer! For erotic stories!~ *blushes* Bought these little chocolate raisins from Candy Empire near my workplace.... Cant resist them cause they are oh-oh-oh soooo delightful! Yummy! Quite expensive though.. $8 plus for one small pack.. Well, at least chocolate never fails to make me happy!

*tIng pops another raisin into her mouth.*

Anyway, my ear has been oozing pus all day! I feel like a walking tube of leaking mayo! But at least its less swollen now.. I can actually move my earring without feeling pain. No worries for me! Guess i'm just keep it clean and let it heal by itself! Jolly good! (sounds like Seng Chye?!)

Am thinking of going to Sunset Bay on sat for volleyball but no one seems to be keen on the idea except for Huilin.. Sian diao! I want to play volleyball!!!!

*tIng runs around amok, screaming at the top of her lungs.*

Sorry for the outburst.. Too much energy! I haven been going to the gym cause i've been busy working and stuff. I'm feeling so so so guilty! I can feel the all the fats going right to my thighs and waist! Argh.. I need to exercise! On the bright side, I've been eating better these days. More vegs and less meat! Have been eating vegetarian food for the past few days (I think the stall should issue me a VIP card). Lots of fruits also! Lots of raisins for me! I'm sure when they tell you to take one serving of fruits, raisins are included as well! *waiting for you to nod your head in agreement of this* RIGHT????

*tIng raises her eyebrow at you.*

See, isn't it nice to eat more vegs and fruits! *grinz* I've been losing weight.. My jeans cant fit me anymore. (Actually, its either that or they are just loose after numerous washings. I prefer to take it as i've lost weight! *smug smile*) They are almost falling off my hips. I think its because i've been walking long distance and climbing stairs instead of taking the escalator. (Gals, trust me. It really works!) I need new jeans! I need to go shopping. *pouts*

Notice that i've used to work "need" and not the word "want"? Its a need, a necessity. Anyway, i'm going to shower now! Be back again!

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Swollen Ear! 

I've jus realised that its a bad idea to put my MSN email out on friendster. I've been getting to many requests to add people on my MSN. *faints* Too many.. Aww.. That's the bad thing about being too pretty! *giggles* Ok.. Stop being egoistic!

Have a swollen piercing on my right ear. Its the on thats pierced through the soft bone.. I wonder why?! Its been fine all this while and all of a sudden, this morning it jus swelled up. Mum says i should remove the earring and squeeze out the pus. *considers* I don't want the ear hole to close.. I think i was very upset over something, which i cant remember now, when i got the piercing. All that is left is the piercing and i want it to stay. Maybe i'll jus clean it with alcohol and see how it goes.

Since i'm talking about piercings, i've been thinking about getting another one on my left ear. I only have one piercing on the left ear lobe so i'm thinking of getting another one on the inner ear bone. I'm not sure how it will look. I would really love to have one at the back on my neck but i know it wouldn't last cause eventually the body will reject the metal stud. I'm definately not paying for something that wun last. *shakes her head*


Anyway, I went to an interview today at Mr Fang's store (actually his name is not Fang, but i don't know whats his name). I think i'll take up the job offer cause its paying me much better.. Almost twice as much.. *grinz*

I'm considering whether i should get a new hp. I set my eyes on the Nokia 7610. I'm thinking of getting the white or the pink one. My stupid hp seems to be malfunctioning.. (or is it jus my hallucination?) .. The hp cant seems to read the SIM card. *shrugs*

I have lots of stuff to blog about but i cant to to recall all of them at once. Will blog again later when i remember!

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Since this is the second day of the New Year, I want to re-publish my completed list of resolutions.. So here they go..

(1) Be Happy
(2) Spend more quality time with family and friends
(3) Continue quest to PURGE body of FATS
(4) Find someone to love (in case of failure to do so, get pug instead)
(5) Eat less meat and more veggies.
(6) Try to be nice to more people (even irritating kids who call me “Auntie”)
(7) Stop trying to fit in. Esp. since I’m born to STAND OUT.
(8) Overcome fears (including the dark, height etc)
(9) Pick up a new sport (Rock climbing is what i have in mind)
(10) Learn a new language (Dialects included!)

Regarding no. 9, i have been thinking of going back to SP for rock climbing with Sally.. I cant think of anywhere else that i can climb without having to pay for membership. Since Shaun (not the friendster guy) is a SP climber, he can loan us the equipment free of charge. *considers*

Have been quite mean to guys lately.. I don't know why.. Hormones?! Menopause? I get irritated very easily.


Yesterday, i totally snubbed Jon Kong cause i was still feeling annoyed for what he did the other day. And the other time, this guy was talking to me on MSN and i completely brushed him off. Why? Cause i cant stand the way he tried to get me to go over to his place. Come one! I don't even know you! I'm sorry, i'm not interested in cheap trills. *points 3rd finger!* What a bitch! Where are all the decent guys hiding?! *tsk tsk*

Have to work full shift tomolo so i think i better go sleep now~

*tIng yawnz.*

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.

Addicted to this song since i last heard it at Zouk.. Love the lyrics



loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.