Just when you think things are going well on the surface, the big current pulls you from under and swallows you without a trace. I want to scream, shout and cry the fuck out.



I need to talk to someone. Talk to someone about anything. Anything to distract me. Tonight, just talk to me. *lets out a sigh.* I need someone.. Man or Woman.. I don't care.

Held Daphane's hand just now after work.. Felt kind of strange.. Maybe its because i've been yearning for physical intimatacy that i no longer cared if the person is a male or female. Or maybe i'm so disappointed in men that i've fallen for gals instead? *shurgs*

I don't know.. My mind's a whirl.. I just wanna find a guy and throw myself at him. *shrugs* On second thoughts, its not worth it. I've done it before and all i got was nothing. Absolutely nothing but a shadow. But i'm not a shadow for goodness sake! I'M NOT A FUCKING SHADOW. STOP SAYING THINGS LIKE TAT. Its not that i'm hard to fathom. Its either they are too busy trying to change me to someone that i'm not OR they are not that into me at all. I've been hurt too times that i cant remember what its like to be in love. Na behz..

*tIng throws her hands up in the air.*

I'm giving up. I don't feel like falling in love. I just wanna pretend that i'm having fun. Or do i really mean that? *rolls her eyes*

Me, being ME, will always try to solve the problem. Since i cant find the prefect man, i guess i'll have to stare the problem straight in the face and MAKE ONE!

*tIng takes out flour, eggs and water and mixes them in a bowl.*

I'm quite sure i'll be able make a perfect man. Mould him into the Prince Charming of my dreams. *starts to knead the dough* I think i'll add some humour and wit. Perhaps a dash of sexiness.. Not forgetting the most important of all.. charms! *continues to shape the dough*

You know.. If he turns out "mouldy" instead of well moulded, I can always just eat him up! *shurgs*

*tIng pops her perfect man into the oven and turns the knob for 10 mins*

While he's "baking" in the oven, i guess i'll read my book ("Sex and the City") for awhile before i sleep.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.