Been kinda busy these days.. Work is getting real hard and i'm trying my best to try to get things done. I miss Daphane. I miss how she always tells me that work is never ending and how is should do more thing for me and not for the company.

Daphane.. If you see this post.. Mail me.. Where the hell have you been?!! &%$^&^%^**

Life's really weird. Sailor and and i just go on as though nothing happened. Its as though we never had an arguement or never attempted to break up. *shrugs* But i guess from all this, its a reminder to me that i should not let another person be the focus of my life. No one's gonna be there when i fall. I came to this world alone and i'll most likely die alone. *shrugs*

Been thinking about the song Kelly (Superstar) sang during the Finals. Its called "Bei Ai De Nu Ren". I like the lyrics.. Kinda reflects how i feel right now.. Especially the last line.. "Wo bu shi mei chi shi lian hou, dou neng cong xin zai lai".

*tIng sighs.*

If one day, Sailor boy really leaves me, I dont think i'll put myself out there and believe in love. Seeking something that's I cant see or touch is not as practical as getting cash. I'm sorry for being so cold and unfeeling. But that's the way things are right now.

Right now i only have one thought..... $30k..

I want to reach that target. I'm determined to hit that target. I'll prove to people i can do it. Sometimes, i feel that people at work don't really like me. Maybe its because the other new comer is not really very good so everyone is more protective towards her. Whereas on the other hand, i'm coping "too well". So well that i've gotten a very big client within my 1st month. I didn't ask for it. I so happened to pick up the phone at the right time. But anyway, i'm not there to make friends. I'm just there to do my work.. Earn the cash and get out ASAP.

You'll think freedom is a precious thing but what's freedom to me when i don't feel chained in the first place?! Life's ironic, isn't it? If there's one place i have to name as a paradise in Singapore, i would say its my fave pub. No one knows about that pub except me and the person who brought me there. Its soo quiet that no one in my circle never heard of it. I'm selfish and i wun say where it is. I like to think of it as my special place.

Its been a long time since i've been there..

I miss it..

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.