I'm blogging again. Finally. How long has it been i have no idea... I'm sorry i've been away but i guess life caught up with me and left me with no choice but to spend more time in the real world out there.


I've switched to an office job now. Given a choice, i wouldn't have taken it up. But i put my love ones before. This job is what my mum considers as a decent job. I guess she thinks that retail positions are not good enough. *sighs* I took up this job cause i was hoping to spend more time with Sailor boy. You know.. office hours.. weekends off.. I thought we could spend more time with each other.

*tIng sighs again.*

I still hope one day i'll go back to retail. But i don't see it happening any time soon. Well.. at least not in the next 5 years.

I feel fustrated. I feel upset. I don't like the life i'm in. I don't like the things i'm doing. Sometimes, i wonder why am i doing all this shit. I hate my clothes. I hate all the paper work.


I'm just whining again. I know for a fact i cant give up now. I cant quit now!


Things are tough these 2 days. Argued with Sailor boy over something very stupid, which resulted in us not barely talking. He's not eager to meet me. I feel like i've commited some kind of unforgivable crime. I'm working late for 3 whole days. Just an excuse for me not to go home and face the 4 empty walls.

*tIng tries to drown herself with paperwork.*

Who know what will happen if i carry on like this? Maybe one day, some kind person will discover the remains of tIng under a pile of resumes and contracts? I bet they'll have to dig real deep to find me.

Got alot of shit at work. Screwed up my interview with my candidate. Screwed by my team leader. Then, as if things cant get any worse, my candidate refused to go for the interview... Did not answer my calls..


Bad things always comes in threes.. This should end NOW.


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.