There are times in my life when i feel absolutely alone and i like it. Its just one of those days when i like to avoid human contact. And this includes my mum.

There are reasons why i don't really feel close to my mum. As i've mentioned before, our relationship became very distant after i starting working. Especially since we don't see each other much due to different working hours. And there are times when i really wonder what does she think of me? Like this afternoon for example. I dragged myself to the temple for her even though i've hardly slept for the past 2 days. But when she introduced my sister and I to other people, she just went on and on about my sister being a journalist from SPH.

Yes. I know.. On the surface, it sounds like a very important and decent job. And i can tell from my mum's tone, she's really proud of my sister. I am too. But she didn't even bother to introduce me or what i do. I know the sales line is not what my mum considers as "decent". But hey, its paying alot of stuff ok.

Even though i'm not a uni graduate or whatsoever, i'm still her daughter ok. And reasons why i'm not in uni? I'm don't have the FUCKING MONEY. But anyway, i knows she doesn't mean it. I try not to take it to heart. But it happened so many fucking times. I guess i should be numb to it by now right?! So i walked off after everything by myself. Went to PS alone to watch a movie. I'm happy being alone. Fucking hell, i simply enjoy my own company.

I didn't pick up all their calls today. Just don't feel like talking to any of them. I'm afraid i might blow up or break down. Either way, its a goner.

*tIng shrugs and walks off.*

Just leave me alone.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.