I'm feeling kinda low. Nothing seems to be right. Its like one day to my birthday and i cant even feel the excitement in me. *sighs* I kinda wished that i could be alone on my birthday but i cant. So when i had to decide on the venue, where else but ZOUK!


I love that place. I love the music. I love the dance. I love everything about it. I wanna spend my birthday at Zouk. Lots of people could not come. That's the whole point. I don't wanna spend my day entertaining people. I don't care who's coming. If they come, we'll have a good time. I'm not going to beg everyone to come. I wanna enjoy myself. I know i'll enjoy myself at Zouk. I dunno.. I just feel that my birthday is no big deal.


Yesterday i had to celebrate my birthday at my aunt's place. Its not that i don't like company. But i was really tired after work and i had to rush to get my own cake. Yes. The birthday gal had to buy her own cake. Not much people turned up. It wasn't even a dinner. Everyone's eaten by the time i got there. Had to cut my cake asap cause people are waiting for the cake. (No one even bothered to ask me whether i had eaten. *shrugs*) Relatives too busy playing mahjong to even sing me birthday song. Children playing. I had to keep smiling.




Even though i was hot, sticky and tired.. *sighs* I know.. I'm not much of a big deal. But i was hoping for abit more. Just wished that they could make me feel abit more special.




The feeling sux. The "party" was more of an obligation rather than me enjoying myself. *slams her head* It was like celebrating for the sake of doing so. No one was especially interested in me. Or what i wanted.

Well, its ok. I'm used to that. I just need to whine about it now. I know i'll get over it soon.




Hope i'll enjoy myself at Zouk more. I jus wanna hide somewhere. My heart aches and i'm sad.


loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.