I'm upset! I'm pissed off! I've jus lost my card holder!

*tIng slams her head against the wall repeatedly!*

Argh! Why? Why am i so careless?! Now i have to make a police report for my NRIC and my ezlink card. *whines* I've jus msged all of my friends to tell them how upset i am about losing my card holder. I need the attention since i dun have a bf whom i can whine to! I'm upset! And i'm going to sit at home and sulk all night. Think i'll eat my raisins. I'm sure i'll feel better.

*tIng pops a few raisins into her mouth.*

See.. I feel so much better already. *continues eating* Let me see.. Who did i msg? I msg Azan, Roger and Colin. On MSN, i told Su ken, Alex and this guy (i forgot his name?). What can i say? I'm crying out for attention. *shrugs*

Anyway, received another request on Friendster again.. This time, its this guy called Roy, asking me out for a night spin. Huh? Whats this about? I don't even know him. And also another one on Wholivesnearyou, this guy called Stanley. Well, its ok. I don't mind knowing more friends. *shrugs*

Ok, now you guys may think that i'm a complete slut/tramp/bitch for flirting with all these guys. Maybe i should explain myself abit here..

You see, after dating so many guys for like the past 3 years and STILL NO HAPPILY EVER AFTER, i've come to realise something very important. Functional relationships sometimes doesn't mean only with one man. It may also mean functional relationships with different men of different functions. And how is this so?

For example, men to me now have different functions. Men like Roger can accompany me for shopping trips. Men like Colin can accompany for clubbing. Men like Azan (my darling hubby) can talk crap with me all the time. And also, men like Franklin would more than gladly have a ONS with me, with the condition that i pay him of course. (But why would i pay him for sex?) *considers* So in this case, monogamy just doesn't work out. Oh i must also mention, men like my ex bfs also serve a function and that is to remind constantly how stupid i was to put up with the shit they did to hurt me.

Its not that i'm cynical about love or anything. I still am hopeful about love. Its just that i don't think i believe in it as much as i did in the past. Beside, i'm enjoying myself too much now. I can come and go as I please. I like it now when i can do whatever i like, without having to consider about other people's feelings. Neither do they care too much abt me. Occasionally, some guy may start to feel more and wants to take things to another level. So i'll have to just remind him gently, "Lets not complicate things." *smiles* To me, freedom is too much a price to pay for transient love. Maybe it would also be correct to say that i'm getting commitment phobic. *shrugs*

Before i log off, i have a few updates on whats going on this weekend.

Firstly, Sunset bay outing has been certified dead. Huilin has ditched me for Vincent. Yanwen ditched me for her bf cause its his birthday. Kathy is physically unavailable for water related activities. Moreover, they just found a human skull along on of the beaches at Sentosa. So, with much regret, we'll have to put it on hold. I'm pissed. *pouts* Its ok. I'll just go shopping.

Secondly, its Cecelia's birthday on Sat and there will be a chalet at Pasir Ris. So my presence has be requested at 8.00pm. I don't know what to get her for the birthday. Most likely i'll be sharing a Levi's voucher witht the GV gang. Speaking of Levi's, as some of you may know i have an ex bf named Levi (pronounced as "Levy"). He dumped me over a year ago, for reasons i still am not sure about. Ever since then, i've refused to talk or wear anything related to Levi's jeans. However, since its the new year, i've decided to forgive him. I'll start wearing Levi's again.

Thirdly, i've just quitted my job at Inizio and Etc. Am going to work for Mr Fang starting next week. Hope everything will go well. Wish me luck everyone!

*tIng crosses her fingers.*

Ok.. I think i've blogged enough for today. Be back tml.

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.