Jus came back town.. Went to this beer place opp suntec (i forgot what's the name of the place) with Sally, Yanwen, Chaiyang, Richard, Iskandar and Zen. Its been such a long time since i last saw people from SP Clubs... Had quite some fun teasing the waiter there. Haha..
Iskandar.aka.Christina and Zen.aka.UGLYLIRA were happily teasing this guy called Kai, who waited on us. Actually, they kept telling Kai that they wanted to have a threesome with him.What happened to my NORMAL GUY FRENS? Why are all my guy frens acting like gays?
*tIng faints.*
Anyway, it was fun hanging out with frens again. I din want to spend all night sulking at home jus because Kiat was out at Chinablack or Zouk. He's upset cause i'm out with frens and i din reply his msgs. But isn't it the same when he's out with his frens and too busy to reply my msgs. But please, i don't say things like "Since you are enjoying so much and dun need to care. So be it." What the hell does this means? Its been like how long since i was with my club frens. At least a year since i last saw them. I don't go out with my frens all that often. Not even with su ken or huilin. Thanks for asking me to enjoy.
Yes, its true that i'm uncomfortable when he goes clubbing. And this is because i felt that clubbing 3 times a week is simply too much. When i told him how i felt, he jus disagreed with me and said that he only felt that 4 times or more a week was excessive. Ok.. I accept that. That's why i found somethings to do to distract me. So i wun sulk at home. I dun like to feel upset all the time as well.
Its also true i'm upset when he doesn't inform me where is he going. Like he went out at 4 plus am in the morning with his frens without telling me, and the time he went supper with Pat and the rest without telling me, not to mention yesterday he went to meet his fren on his bike to i dunno where. And all these i found out only when i called or msged him. I'm don't even know what time he reached home yesterday. Yes its true that i was sick yesterday... but i don't think reading a msg would take up alot of my strength and energy.
Don't tell me you will be home early... Yes you are always home early.. at 5 or 6 am in the morning. That i know. I rather hear from you that you will be home late tonight. It makes alot of difference. At least i wun wait up for you to msg me, thinking for ONCE YOU MIGHT BE HOME EARLY.
What am i? I'm not the same naive gal anymore. I wun always be there, esp not, after knowing that what you are capable of. Please dun take for granted that i'll always be there.
Am watching the show on TV, The legend of White Snake. I hate the character Xu xian. He's such a bastard. Not worthy of love. Today, Sally told me that Yanwen's bf also sort of cheated on her while she's away in US but Yanwen is still with him. When confronted, the gal simply said that its her bf who came looking for her on his own accord. What a bitch! Why do all the 3rd parties act as though they are simply innocent? Fucking hell.. Is there actually a school for 3rd parties, teaching them to say the same thing? Men are idiots but gals are jus as idiotic as well. Why do we keep forgiving those guys who cheat on us?
I think the only reason is that you simply don't stop loving that person even after they hurt you. You jus have to choose either to forgive them or choose to love them in another way. Both yanwen and me chose the first way. Forgive. Its the hard road.
Sally asked me why did i even bother to forgive Kiat after hearing all the things he did. I've asked myself the same question a million times over and over again. My conclusion is that i cant simply stop for feeling for someone that i loved so deeply.
*tIng cuts open her chest and checks.*
I'm not that heartless.
loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.
