Jus got up.. feeling tired as usual.. have to rush to work later so this will be a very short post. My eyes are swollen from crying yesterday.. still feel abit hurt inside me.. i hope this feeling will not last long. This freaking month has been tough.. its like going through a rollar coaster... i feel emotionally drained.. physically drained too... too much crying... tooo much pain.. there isn't anything to smile or feel happy about nowadays.. cant seem to find any reason to do so..

All the things that happened this few weeks only made me realised one thing... no one truly loves you except yourself. I din love myself as much as i should. But i'll start doing it now. I'll stop trusting people so easily, stop being a plaything to others, stop believing that people really wan to be my frens, stop thinking that i should being nice to unnecessary people. I think i'm diffrent now.. so different from the person whom i used to be. The gal who keep smiling.. where is she now?

The only thing i can to do now is to try to hold back the tears. I dun wish to cry anymore. It's been too much, too long...

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.