Jus came back from Jon's hall.. went to pass him his birthday present cause his birthday is tomolo. Did what i should do.. repaid him by treating him better. Guess i dun owe him anything anymore.

Very tired today cause i didn't sleep well the day before. Dragged myself to bed around430am... but i jus cant fall asleep despite the fact i was very tired. Stared at the ceiling for a very long time... thought about alot of stuff... Couldn't stand it anymore so i got up and took what's left of my cough syrup. Dun get me wrong... I'm not trying to kill myself or anything. Jus wanted to fall asleep. Sure enough, i fell asleep. I don't know why but suddenly i jus woke up again. Cant remember what i dreamt of but all i know is the fact that i was frightened. Very frightened.. I was covered with sweat and felt too weak to move. The feeling was horrible. I dunno how to describe this feeling. I never felt so alone and afraid before. So scared of being alone in the dark. Why am i feeling this way?

Couldn't fall asleep after that.. jus tossed and turned on my bed till dawn....

loVe iS a deLuSiOn tHat OnE mAn dIffErs fRoM aNotHer.